CHRISTINA

Melbourne Love

2010-11-01T14:29:00.001+08:00

I am supposed to be doing my NUR1114 Journal Synthesis on Reflective Journalling and yet I'm not. The feel of laze, procrastination and escape overwhelmed me. Because, apparently I can't apply for 1 year of LOA because it's against NUS regulations (Creedy, 2010). But, I thought I read that the maximum LOA period is 2 semester=1 year. 1 hour left to conjure up a coherent piece of work.

Dad said. Let it run it's full course before quitting. So I am super sian. Attachment and exams. I still need to buy the black nursing shoes! Shoes are a problem to me. Gah... shouldn't have told him that attachment came in 2 blocks. Now, I need to study for the exams that's in between.

I just can't wait to throw away everything here and just go over now! The anticipation is killing me. I need to pack. PACK! So many things to PACK! Would I have the time? I need to move my room out. Because it'll be rented.

The independence rocks. It's not as if living alone is a foreign concept for me. It was like this during A's and I was able to concentrate better, less distractions, less accompany. Staying at Grandma's house was as good as living alone. Although, I must say it's still a little different. I had my meals and laundry covered. Bills are not settled by me. The environment wasn't a foreign one. PLUS, I don't have to walk to school. I even cabbed to school for exams.

So, if I have to quit, it means that I have no other alternative. It's either do (well) or die. That's simple! Besides, I'll be studying things I've done in A's. Which I think I've forgotten. GOSH, need to revise. So, time?

This is complicated and I'm in such a dilemma! Quit school to pack room and revise topics or continue and revise the new things I've learnt which are not of immediate importance to my point-breaking, decision-dependent future.

If I continue, I'll be spending more money on transport and notes printing. I'll be spending more time on clinicals and exams studying. I'll have less time to pack and revise for Taylor's.

If I quit, I won't have the chance to go to the aged care attachment. I'd have wasted money on the uniform and badge. I wouldn't be able to assess my learning in nursing so far. But, I'll have much more time to prepare myself for the transition.

I can't wait for 2011 Formula 1™ Australian Grand Prix and 2011 L’Oréal Melbourne Fashion Festival (LMFF).

This decision is tough. If only I had more time. Now, I only have 30 minutes left to craft my synthesis.

Quintessential.Voices.Resonace

2010-08-20T02:48:00.001+08:00

Rah rah ah, ah, ah
Roma, roma, ma
Gaga ohh la la
Want your bad romance

Where has singing gone to? Where has music disappeared to? Whatever about self-expression.

I'm just tired maybe.
Or I'm just being cowardly.

Should I sing?
Or just, can I?

Sleep!

I was stealing the use of her laptop!

2010-07-25T23:47:00.001+08:00

Self torture taking to a visual and more technologically advanced level- Facebook.

While trying to "edit friends", updating the "list" grouping, I realised how interesting and sadistic life has been. For one, my classification generalised. What used to be school and class became just school. Laziness fluctuated, causing serious non-uniformity, caps where not where they should be placed. However, the rampant in-discriminative socialising behaviour of the Homo Sapiens never failed to surprise me; even the most hermit of hermits would have "friends".

With every name that passed, memories and emotions would gush out. I can only compare the way it felt with the current state of our weather conditions in Singapore: unpredictable. There wasn't a just pleasant or a just nostalgic, it was all mixed and thrown into the blender. It was like how the rain just came down so heavily when the sun was up high and bright on the roads of orchard after I went to idp.

Pleasant experiences fade away to become memories that jolt a sense of nostalgia. When it is nostalgia you feel, it is non-existent the incidences. Those stories of yesteryears are what that remain us "friends" on Facebook, as it suggests, it is purely virtual.

–noun

a person attached to another by feelings of affection orpersonal regard.

a person who gives assistance; patron; supporter: friends ofthe Boston Symphony.

a person who is on good terms with another; a person who isnot hostile: Who goes there? Friend or foe?

a member of the same nation, party, etc.

( initial capital letter ) a member of the Religious Society ofFriends; a Quaker.

The degree of specificity just decreases down the explanations of the meaning of the word.

What I am doing makes me sad or should I say, distressed at my social handicap.

If I have a time machine, I would make those memories real again.

My Comeback

2010-07-09T19:24:00.000+08:00

Soon, I would have my long deserved break (the deserving part is subjective thou). I guess it would at least be 5 days worth. Still I suppose I wouldn't be taking much of a break but just not being physically present where I am needed.

It is still the holidays now and I've been asked what have I been doing. Initially I thought nothing much. Then I probed myself further and I guess it is really not that much...

1. Volunteering
- Chingay
Nothing much really. Just was the SOIC. Attended a few training and reconnaissance (recee) and meetings and 2 shows.
- Explorally
Attended a few of their meetings and did a full trial with the kids. Had to drop out halfway due to their change of date. Hope my wet weather plans probing helped them.
- NDP
IT IS NEVER-ENDING. At least the drama did- I would like the entertainment but not the complications. 5 more shows left, 4 more for me: NE1, NE3, Preview, SHOW! Don't you just love the Wednesday fattening, rubbishing, Shao-Hong-bullying and draggy meetings.
- YOG
First training, 8am tomorrow! Mad rush before NE1.

2. Learning
- Driving
I missed my practical lesson for the SECOND time. There flies another $53++. Hope to get my license within this year.
- Drums
Just quit the horrible and money sucking "My Drums School" located in Jalan Behsar. Would be looking for better places! Drumming is so cool!
- Ballet
Having Tuesday nights' lessons at Attitude in Bukit Timah Shopping Centre. Would be looking for Thursday classes! My core is practically rotten!

3. School
- NUS CAC Camp
Met interesting people and got traumatized badly during SP activities.
- Nursing FOC
Just ended yesterday! I met nice people and really can't wait for school to start!
- NUS Med Rag
Would be helping with the costumes. Just ended our day 1 of work today. 1 month to slog! I also found out today that Med people spend money like it's free.

I guess that is all I did or am doing now. As for the future....

1. Hair for Hope 2010
2. Work: YOG Housekeeping
3. Australia settlement

Life should be more exciting.

What CCAs should I join?

Random evaluation of #1

2010-04-05T00:46:00.003+08:00

When we talk, I really am impressed with the way how our ideas are always the same, really irritated at how you always managed to speak of it first, lastly just purely bedazzled by such coincidence. Somehow, I still hope it would last.

So that issue still lingers in my mind, weaving in and out of thy consciousness insidiously. Slowly eating away the littlest of sunshines that falls on that yellowing patch of field. This is cruel torture and mostly (supposedly) self-inflicted. Talk about mental self-mutilation.

The shrugging of shoulders doesn't really work towards yourself plainly because some things aren't just done for show or are meaningless to be done superficially. If it matters to you, it does not matter how many times you proclaim it doesn't. This just doesn't work like the smile-to-the-mirror trick.

The only lead that ever appeared, disappeared. Well, a life of one's own is being led. Simple as such. The accompaniment by the key personnel towards a happier being is sufficient and surpasses every other activity. So I guess the only catalyst that induces my natural melancholy reaction would be self sufficient- deeming the post JC torture galavanting unnecessary.

It is just the time of the year where insecurities and inferiorities resurface and bring about a newer level of introspection. However unpleasant this experience might be, let's just face it with wit and guts. As it is just the whole point of that day.

GLEEK! LM awesomest =]

2010-02-22T01:58:00.003+08:00

On my own, pretending he is beside me
I close my eyes and he has found me
All my life I've only been pretending
I love him

Trying to apologise
Please just cut it out, cause you're not
Really have me going, very entertaining
But it's over now

Not knowing our pasts, future and worlds
Is there solid ground below, or hand to hold
What do you say
Take the chance and jump

Maybe this time, I am lucky
Maybe this time, love won't hurry away
Maybe this time I'll win and they'll love me
It's gonna happen, this time

Airy fairy took my breath away
My world revolves around you
How do expect me to live alone
How are you gonna live without me, no

I'm through with playing my your rules
It's time to try defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye, you won't bring me down
If I don't try, I'll never know

It's just a little crush, don't go so deep in
We don't need a scientist to know what's happening
It's not like we have a date with destiny
Not everything I do depends on you

My first love, you're everything
I want to share all my love with you, endlessly
Your eyes tell me how much you care
Forever I'll hold you close to my arms
I'm sure you know I don't mind being a fool for you, oh love

Why did you kiss that girl for
When you first left me, I was so lost
When you cried asking me back, I smiled
I smiled

Now

2010-02-19T02:48:00.002+08:00

What do you say to taking chances?
What do you say...

钻牛角尖，我的性格。也可以说，追求完美。
应该放过自己，残忍可能是一种自我考验。

I really do understand now why people love to drink till it numbs their senses.
Just that I don't drink.

能回头看，是件好事。
停留在现在，是愚蠢。
往前冲，可是最重要。

eventful. How so?

2010-01-18T23:43:00.003+08:00

A lot of things happened recently (or are going to happen). For say, today.

1. A normal trip to IMM became much of a shocker due to the cost of it.
- Grocery shopping at Giant costed $193. I know I have a penchant for choosing expensive items but 2 magazines and some yoghurt and facial wash (on top of the normal grocery items) shouldn't be that ex.
- Mom knocked into someone's car and caused a dent on the Hyundai. She sent the driver to the service centre we're familiar with and of course Dad have to foot the bill.

2. The anesthetist had a last minute heart surgery to attend to.
- Since I can't go for surgery without being sedated (I am being put to sleep), the surgery is being postponed. This is awful cause I have to prolong the pain. So Friday, 2pm it is! I am going to be going to Mount E. Going to a hospital just makes everything a whole lot worse.
- It was so funny, Dr A Wong called to tell me the news and then Dr Lim's nurse called to say the exact same thing. What was I hoping for besides a "no food and drinks 6 hours prior the op". So I think I have to have my last meal at 0800 hrs! Can I even wake up?
- The arrangements were made very last minute and Dr Lim squeezed me into his lunch break, so I can't have my front teeth back that day. I may remain front teethless for at least a day. CUTE!

3. Spoke to Mason again.
It was totally random and weird. So I shall pass.

4. I got the runs all day and it is so not fun.
I don't hate the toilet but I don't really enjoy frequenting it. Staying there for long hours bathing or soaking in the hot tub is fun, but this, this isn't. But I don't know what happened to me.

5. Andrew Ng called me irritating just because I asked him who he likes.
- That made me really regret dining with him and being his personal shopper yesterday. That asshole made me wait so damn long at Marche. Also, his indecisiveness was a total turn off helping him buy nice shirts, not mentioning his bad fashion sense. Such a waste of good time and money
- So sending him off to army would so be the last time I am seeing him. He made me so angry I can rant off a whole chain of vulgarities but that is just uncouth. This is funny. See, he asked me out. So, I asked him out. When we went out, I told him going out with him felt like bringing my little brother out. So, he said "then don't go out with me". Which, I couldn't agree with more.
- Andrew Ng really know how to piss me off. The funny thing is he don't know when I am. I wasn't feeling very bright yesterday so I wasn't smiling a lot. The long wait wasn't really helping. The ignoring-of-me wasn't helping too. He was irritated cause I told him I was smarter than him. Yes, better prelim grades do not equate more intelligent. I failed, SO?

6. Avatar 3D here I come!
Tomorrow would be so exciting, having to meet and talk stuffs with 3 batches of people at J8. So I decided to also hop by Singapore Discovery Centre to watch the 3D movie. Derek was so in pain so I asked him out for it. The others whom I asked to watch it with me rejected me (days back, on other outings). I was surprised and happy Derek haven't watched it yet. I watch alone when I want to be that way. So that is nice. Although we haven't quite figured out how to get there. Given the inconvenience I think Derek is backing out.

7. Wei Shan suddenly spoke to me on msn.
It was funny cause she started like this "don't you have something you want to say to me?". Turns out it was no biggie, but she still has stuffs to tell me. When would I see her?

8. I heard the cute couple's breakup story.
- 1 Corinthians Chapter 7 Line 13 and 14. Line 13: And if a woman has a husband who is not a believer and he is willing to live with her, she must not divorce him. Line 14: For the unbelieving husband has been sanctified through his wife. If you are reading it (which I doubt you ever would chance upon my blog).

- He was in pain, she was confused, her friend is such a bitch, I feel so sorry for him cause he's in NS and I can't meet him to cheer him up. I guess having him tell me the whole teary breakup story pains him even more.

- Yes my dear, for you believed in the footprints poem, He would also carry you through it.

9. This something is stuck in my head for the whole day.
- jealousy |ˈjeləsē|
noun ( pl. -ousies)
the state or feeling of being jealous : a sharp pang of jealousy | resentments and jealousies festered.
- jealous |ˈjeləs|
adjective
feeling or showing envy of someone or their achievements and advantages : he grew jealous of her success.
- envy |ˈenvē|
noun ( pl. -vies)
a feeling of discontented or resentful longing aroused by someone else's possessions, qualities, or luck : she felt a twinge of envy for the people on board.
• ( the envy of) a person or thing that inspires such a feeling : their national health service is the envy of many in Europe.
- But I am still confused. When are you jealous? Why? What does that imply?

10. Chancing upon an insightful new web log.

The owner would make for a perfect boyfriend, great thinker, knowledgeable, tall, filthy rich, funny and sweet. But not to mention he is also weird, scheming, weird, weird and changed his number secretly (I bet to cast away his past).

Yes, I am scared.

2010-01-17T00:52:00.003+08:00

I had consultations last thursday for dental surgery next thursday. What I thought was bad, became worse.

So in the part 1 of 3 operation:
1. I'll be sedated. I need to starve for at least 6 hours before the surgery and I'll have that hospital tube thing inserted into my hand.
2. My 2 front teeth would be extracted. I think some sterilization has to be done to cleanse the infected area inside.
3. My wisdom tooth at one site would be extracted. This is so that they can have access to the jaw.
4. Since the front teeth is the diseased area, the bone inside can't grow fast enough before the gums receede tremendously. Thus, bone has to be chiseled out of my jaw and grafted into the diseased area.
5. I can't remember the reason but they're gonna cut the flap linking the upper lips and gum. This is ouch!

On the plus side I'll be given loads of painkillers. It'll totally kill all that pain that's bringing me down. Staying home means less expenditure- I'm running on deficit here, used the money for plaster for ezlink, money for ezlink for social purposes.

So today I finally figured what's my problem.
I'm punishing myself half the time.
So stupid, putting myself in situations that makes the cup overflow.
I figured, loving myself more would be the best solution.
Easier said than done.

Today there was chingay.
There wasn't movie witn R, YS & Peter.

There was a random lunch with Charlyn, Xue Yi, TK, JK, and Chinagy people.

Disappointing
There was class gathering with 13 people eating food meant for 20 and paying $20 for very simple stale fare.
There was movie watching after that. Warning: hostel is more porn than gore. Overall, the movie was disgustingly okay.

Something random, it is revolting to hear some ang moh speaking singlish with their caucasian accent. It is as disgusting as Singaporeans trying to speak english with caucasian accent.

OH MY GOSH!

2010-01-10T23:07:00.002+08:00

Have been out the whole day. Was supposed to have fun, but I can't help but feel uneasy the whole day. It was as if something wrong was going to happen. 我一整天都有很不详的预感. It is so not fun.

There's something on my mind, something scary, the surgery. Consultations are this thursday, so I'll be fixing my op day then.

So here's the long story.

When I was in primary 4, I remembered we were having our P.E. lesson. We were playing police and thief and I was on the police side. So, a thief ran past me and I told Wei Han (who's also a police) to catch him as I was guarding the prison. As I turned to face him, he RAMMED into me. My goodness, he is the school's sprinter. Imagine the impact.

I fell to the floor instantaneously and he, flew meters across. I dropped my 2 adult front teeth, my nose bled, elbows and knees awfully scraped. For Wei Han, he just got a bruise on the cheek. It was infuriating. But, the fault wasn't his anyway. The teachers helped me up and took my teeth for a thorough cleansing.

Wei Han apologised. So sweet. We were loggerheads in primary school, so it was nice of him to apologise.

I was rushed to SGH. The teeth were unsalvageable because the roots were washed off. I had root canal treatment that day. It was horrifying and a little painful and I went to school with braces like things on my teeth.

As years went by the teeth fused with my facial bone so everything came into place. Until one fateful day last year. There was a fracture - the day I most fear came. So the teeth, the 2 FRONT teeth. Dr Wong YH at SGH recommended me Dr A Wong who opens a private clinic (the Oral Care centre). Plan was, I'm getting implants.

After much discussion with her orthodontist, I had braces to slowly pull my front teeth out. This would allow the bone to heal while the teeth is being 'extracted' with orthodontic forces. The carbon fiber rods were fitted in to join the fractured teeth. I've been seeing Dr Henry Ho faithfully for the past few months and although there were complications here and there nothing major happened.

On NYE, the unwanted happened. I found out I had a blister on the gum holding the right front tooth. This spells trouble. I was worried but all I can do is wait cause dental appointment is on the 7th. That day the x-ray confirmed it. The teeth DETACHED! It was horrible. They have to be removed ASAP because of the infection (shown by the blister).

I thought it was bad, removing my front teeth and the swell and such. The worse was when Dr A Wong called and told me they also need more bone from other places. I was shocked! The bone would be taken from my jaw. It was like double the horror! It was also such a kill joy for VDCX + Weijia KTV (when twan finally made it over).

So, I'll be having kind of like a wisdom tooth + front teeth op. I'll be under anesthetic (the whole body kind). I guess I'll start to fully freak out on thursday, after dental consultations.

I had another blister again yesterday, so it was so not good!

The only plus point would be having 2 weeks to stay at home to pack my filthy room. I am now trying to fill my days with the company of others.

I guess that's all for the story.

ZZomg!

2010-01-07T14:04:00.002+08:00

This is worse than wisdom tooth extraction.

I am scared.
I am worried.

I'll be home.
I'll be absent.

I have one more week to play.
I have two weeks after to heal.

Let it be safe.
Let it heal fast.
Let me not fret.
Let me not blog like that.

I'll have to miss 3rd general meeting.
I'll have to miss 2nd volunteers training.

I can't miss the BTE and BTT.

Well, at least I can get twantwan to visit! =]
and we chat with paper.

OH NO!

Today

2010-01-05T01:29:00.002+08:00

Since I almost typed out my whole blog post on the convo with Peter, I might as well just post it.

I was so sick I slept almost the whole day, ate and watched tv. Bathing didn't help and it also didn't help that I have proposals to look through and people to update.

Fault on me for sleeping late. I need to get well soon. Not gonna waste my hols doing stupid things.

Talked to Mason. It was surprising- the kinda things I told him. Since we weren't exactly friends when the class still existed.

I want to go ice-skating! Missed it with Wei Li. The YS, Peter, R and maybe bong, taa, bushykid, huiling convo didn't help to expedite the organization of an ice-skating cum chingay outing.

God bless the world. Improve the human hearts and soul.
Let there be conscience! =]

Us

2009-12-27T23:35:00.003+08:00

Humans do thrive on compliments. The soul feeds on positivity. This also makes all that sound disposable.

and so I really did SEE

2009-12-24T23:54:00.003+08:00

It was like travelling out of that crystal globe. The transition in POV was really tremendous and often not that pleasing.

Compromising is not an option.

Let that exclusive love blossom!

wedding and prom

2009-12-08T11:25:00.005+08:00

took so little photos!

Wedding was well, small and sweet. Decked in a white dress and burnt skin, I think I looked all so patriotic. The day started early, the wedding ended rather early too. My hair and makeup wasn't even done when the groom came. We were supposed to sabotage the groom before allowing him to see the bride, but we were all such a softie and allowed him in for peanuts amount. I guess the lack of sleep and the burning pain of sun burn made be delirious (people might beg to differ on that).

The venue, Shangri-La. The suite, gorgeous! It is a room with a (construction) view, level 19 is all too cool! I was pulled into being emcee the last minute and partner was so nervous we screwed up a lil. It was nice seeing relatives again (socialising and catching up). We talked about uni, A's, tutoring, all the usuals. Cousin was being as egoistic as ever, I guess it is the polo vibe.

The prom day was nerve wrecking. Hair was done oh-so last minute. I had to wait an hour for the stylist and she bitched about me being unbearable thinking that I had left the place. $40 bucks for a simple hair style, loads of pins and hairspray. Not worth it.

I was surprised my dress was wearable! Gosh! When we were shopping for it, it was still super tight. Well, =]. Make up was done so last minute at the suite. Me, my aunt's sista and I. This is the epic situation of too many cooks spoil the broth. I went down for prom at 8.30 pm when I planned to arrive 2 hours earlier.

Everyone looked gorgeous (almost everyone looked flattering). I think everyone from the class came, except Stella though. Food was awful, the food at wedding was better. Yes, both were at the same hotel. I was so fidgety throughout prom, meddling with stuffs and I was so distracted I lost my door gift even (and forgot to vote for Guo Xiang and Germaine).

JJ was just next door and OMG the difference in prom ticket is horrendous! We paid an astronomical amount! It was fun pulling people out from JJ, having a mini 412 gathering. It was so stupid we couldn't crash their prom. They had tighter a security and people have UV stamps imprinted on their hands. So, JJ people crashed ours instead. Gah, Si Ian!

Now, post prom was just what I expected. This is considered my first time clubbing, the thank-you dinner at St. James didn't count. I sat, watched people, got amused, tried dancing, ended up being knocked around. I figured, good company is so important to enjoy oneself during clubbing.

I really wanted NYH to come over, but he decided against it the last minute. =[ So, I hang round Christie and friends, Andrew and at times, Wei Li. Jia Cheng accompanied me for a while when he came over (he turned so gay!). It was nice watching people, sweating together. They get the adrenaline from dancing, getting high on alcohol. I get the adrenaline from watching, and getting high with good company (it was a rare moment). This adrenaline is addictive.

Halfway through I think I got a little tired and a little drunk (I only had a few sips and a gulp of vodka). It was fun watching Zi Mu and Dahlia dance. Christie was dancing like mad. I was very shocked when I finally realised the guy dancing to the speaker was Zachary Yong! Gosh! He looked DRUNK! Yet, he sounds like the perfect Zac when he started speaking. I was astounded and saddened. Astounded at the obvious. Saddened at my inferiorness. I always knew there was a streak of rebelliousness in him, but this... WOW!

Wei Li, Andrew, Billy and Christie and friends crashed the suite. The convo was interesting. The guys were so into soccer. Okay, this is so interesting- it was so girlish when I asked Wei Li and Andrew to help me with my hair. So girl, so sweet, the only thing is they are straight guys.

So, I blatantly ignored someone the whole time. From prom to post prom. It was so obvious! It's fine I suppose. I suppose... It didn't matter to anyone.

Gonna go clubbing with NYH and NYK sometime and see how they can actually dance! I am more concerned with laughing at NYH thou.

Goodbye glitz and glamour, back to responsibilities and all things mundane and repetitive.

the regret? stupid sun burn

hope Jia Cheng found his iTouch.

LAST prom

2009-12-06T17:52:00.002+08:00

Oh I am so ugly I don't feel like going for prom. Then again, I've already paid for the ticket, bought everything else with makeup and hair left! Then again, I have a whole suite to myself, completed with HUGE bathroom and semi walk-in wardrobe and nice king-sized bed. Then again, I look ugly.

This is never ending and yes mom would insist I go.

Post A levels torture!

Less than 3 WEEKS....

2009-11-17T13:14:00.002+08:00

The same title, the same complexity of emotions, BUT there'll be a different ending. As much as the silence is dreaded, the conclusion is feared. Come judgement day, all would come undone.

A goal marks the end of the race. If it hasn't been achieved, would you still consider the race well-ran, or even completed. Unlike the actualities of a real run, where the route is tangible, clear and absolute and very step taken is evident and unambiguous, where every athlete's pace is outwardly displayed, where competition is transparent and the win is explicit, the A's I'm so afraid would be the direct opposite, even the end is subjective.

Oh gracious Lord. I pray for blessings, mercy and strength. I guess this is the epic of 平时不烧香，零时抱佛脚.

Cast those ifs and if-nots away (like the societal strata of haves and have-nots), for the sake of an advance.

请让我呐喊, 让我得到,
我要长下去。

我要生病了。

For I'll love you till the end of time

2009-11-14T01:42:00.002+08:00

There is only one thing that ever made we wake up feeling anxious and almost on the brink of mental breakdown.

Reason #1 of XXXXXX, why sleep is bad for you.
You wake up after a nap thinking it was the next afternoon and you've missed the most important exam of your life.

Reason #1 of XXXXXX, why sleep is good for you.
You would have kept your sanity.

Finally,

Goodnight! =]

Why I should study my ass of NOW.

2009-11-08T21:17:00.000+08:00

Discretionary Admission »

We set aside up to 10 % of vacancies for consideration of exceptional candidates for admission to NUS. For such candidates, we will consider other factors besides grades. The following are some samples of exceptional achievements that we may take into consideration :

Medal winner at the International Olympiads (Biology, Chemistry, Informatics, Mathematics and Physics)
Winner in the National Science & Talent Search
Represented Singapore in Arts and/or Sports
Active participation in community service and volunteer programmes.
Work experience relevant to the course applied for (supporting document/s is/are required)
Key leadership positions in community organisations, sports and athletic clubs, etc (outside school)

In addition, you can provide information on awards/honours that you have won. If you wish to be considered under this scheme, you should provide the details in the 'Discretionary Admissions' section in the online application form. You should then follow up by sending supporting documents to NUS. Please note that if the 'Discretionary Admissions' section in the online application form is not filled in, you will be deemed as not interested for consideration under this scheme.

Why I should've put in more effort for A level Chinese.

2009-11-08T21:16:00.000+08:00

Mother Tongue Language Bonus Points »

If you have done well in your higher MTL subject (Chinese, Malay or Tamil) or MTL subject (Chinese, Malay or Tamil) at the 'A' Level examination, you are eligible for MTL bonus points on condition that you pass the required modules in your respective MTL subjects:

Chinese Language or Chinese Studies.
Malay Studies.
South Asian Studies.

The following MTL bonus points will be awarded:

Two bonus points for applicants who attained at least an E grade H2 MTL;
One bonus point for applicants who attained at least an A grade in H1 MTL;
One bonus point for applicants who attained at least a B grade in H1 General Studies in Chinese; and
Students offering any combinations of MTL-related subjects are allowed to accumulate the MTL bonus points allocated for each subject, including a combination of H1 MTL and H2 MTL.
The cap on bonus points will be three.
For more information, you can visit MOE’s website at: http://www3.moe.edu.sg/cpdd/alevel2006/faqs.htm#Q29.

The MTL bonus points will be added to the Singapore-Cambridge GCE 'A' Level component for computation. The use of bonus points to gain admission to NUS is similar to the award of bonus points for admission to the Junior College Chinese Language Elective Programme.

If you have used the MTL bonus points for admission to the Arts and Social Science course, you will have to sign an undertaking at the point of acceptance.

For more information on the use of bonus points to gain admission to MTL-related courses, you can refer to MOE website.

Tuition

2009-10-17T10:22:00.002+08:00

OMG! I cannot stand this ANYMORE.

There is nothing such as EXTRA knowledge. Gosh! Knowledge is bountiful, knowledge is everlasting, knowledge is limitless. Cringe at the phrase "EXTRA knowledge". Extra, doesn't it just nuance that something is unnecessary, unneeded and uncalled for? Eg, EXTRA money, EXTRA homework, EXTRA food, and the list goes one. For the love of Albert Einstein and Leonardo Da Vinci, can all those existing and aspiring educators out there abolish the phrase: EXTRA knowledge.

I hate it whenever I ask things out of the context and they say "you do not need to know this". But, I'll always rebut with a "but I WANT to know it". There is such a vast difference between wants and needs. Although wants are commonly associated with the frivolous, it doesn't mean it can't be good.

NEW revelations I've made about myself. I am an audio and visual learner. Cool huh... Hence, it is so very irritating when:
1. The teachers stutters.
2. The teachers' grammar stinks.
3. The teachers can't explain well with words.
4. The teachers feel handicapped when I ask them to write it out.

Oh the chore! I hate touching my phone to handle such administrative tasks and await hours for a reply when I have to study so fervently.

C'mon, MOTIVATE! (FB is killing me) but COME ON!!!

It is awful that A levels is so exam-orientated instead of knowledge-based.

Finally, the finals!

2009-10-01T15:11:00.002+08:00

1. THE finals
http://chinesemusicblog.com/news/loud-and-proud-season-6-the-finals

2. final log in (until after you-know-what)

3. the FINAL LAP
I am going crazy, but I think I deserved it.

STUPID SLACKER!

OUCH!

2009-09-20T19:43:00.002+08:00

So, there was the Orh Nee burn. Beautiful works of art I must say.
The very same day, there were showers. Loads.
Effectively, work was left at bay.

The next came our case study.
The actual theory test would come in about 45 days but the specimens of enveloped viruses made their way over earlier.
Now, the consequences of not studying that hard hit me.

Incoherency.

This is the sweetest :)

2009-09-11T18:23:00.000+08:00

有人在关心你飞得高不高时，只有少数人在关心你飞得累不累这就是朋友。这周是世界好友周，如果你愿意，把这条信息发给你的好朋友。借你的手帮我摸摸你的头，小声说：一定要照顾好自己，善待自己，与人为善，记得健康快乐！
爱+爱 = 非常爱
爱-爱 = 从头爱
爱X爱 = 无限爱
爱除爱 = 唯一爱

THANKS EQCH!

SHEEEEEEEEEEET!!!!!

2009-09-04T15:30:00.000+08:00

我知道我的好胜心很强的，这次真是自作自受！
I can feel those butterflies coming out,
I guess, only I know how I am best.

The shit I've gotten myself into

2009-08-26T21:34:00.000+08:00

As I look up into the sky,
I see the Heavens crying.
I thank God for that.
but I needed a hug...
Sorry I was made dense.

Tagged on Facebook by Lee Renyuan

2009-08-22T18:09:00.000+08:00

1. Grab Your Phone.

2. What is the 3rd picture of in your phone?
A snapshot about a shop called Chingay in Serangoon.

3. What's your ring tone?
Some random monotonic tune, call me and you can hear it.

4. Who's the 1st person that comes up under M?
Mabel Ong from NHHS furtwelee.

5. Who's the last person you called?
Mom.

6. Who was your last missed call from?
Hagen Tan.

7. Who's the 1st person who comes up under C?
Candice Huang from NDP YPC 08'.

8. Who's your speed dial number 2?
No speed dial.

9. What does 3rd text in ur inbox say?
Hagen reminding me about recording tomorrow.

10. Who was your last received call from?
Edna Chng.

11. What does your 7th inbox text say?
Alicia telling me that she found the file I sent her.

12. How many messages are currently in your in box?
2655 item.

13. What is the wallpaper?
Some black cup with black liquid I believe to be coffee.

14. What is the screen saver?
No screen saver.

15. Who is the 4th message from in your inbox?
Google reminder.

16. Who's the 1st person who comes up under B?
Bao Xi from SAJC 08S17 (PAE).

17. How many bars of signal do you currently have?
Full bar.

18. What network are you on?
Singtel too.

19. Name every person you have text messages from inbox?
I refuse. I haven't cleared my inbox for months. I clear items selectively.

20. What does your 20th text message in your in box say?
Miss Sin asking me to meet her at the staff room door near the CC to get the mock paper from her.

21. Who is the first person in your contacts?
4th Grand Aunt.

22. Who is the last name in your contacts?
Zipeng from WHY few years back. (and I don't have a clue why I kept his number)

23. What does the bottom text in your inbox say?
Mrs Chang reminding us to get our secondary school testimonial from NHHS GO.

24. What is your balance?
Postpaid.

25. Who is the last person under H?
Huiping from Just tuition Centre.

26. What is your bluetooth name?
cphy.

27. How many numbers are in your phone?
Too many to be counted manually in a SHORT time.

28.Whats the first video on your phone of?
No video.

29. Could you live without it?
To a small extent, NO.

30. Coolest person in your inbox?
A lot of them are.

Life, the subjectivity of it.

2009-08-20T20:43:00.001+08:00

1. Me and my intricate English expressions.
We were once tools of each other, at each other's disposal. Both naively concluded that one had the upper hand in this maneuvering. The conclusion of factual superiority was drawn only AFTER manipulation ceased. How ironic!

2. Morality is dependent on the society.
Shorts is a fundamental attire of mine. However, try that in Middle Eastern countries.

3. Opinions exists.
I said "God gave you a mouth for you to eat your food!"
Sis replied "God gave me a mouth for me to talk"
*rolls eyes and said* "Don't copy me, God gave you food so that you can finish it"
Sis concluded with a failed rebuttal "So I can talk and eat"

4. Truth is non-absolute. As science advances, quality of education improves, the past becomes obsolete.
The fact about 9 planets in which we all hold so dearly to, became 8.

Bottom line: EVERYTHING in life is relative. Adjective are relative. Opinions are formed based on relativity- comparison of prior knowledge. Don't get me started on it.

Understatedly PRUNEY!

2009-08-15T11:59:00.000+08:00

Love the way he LOVE her.

& forget the past, find a NEW adventure!

He, who should never appear

2009-08-10T22:29:00.001+08:00

I've successfully chased away the one who fervently made messaging an essential communication device. So smart! It was SUPPOSEDLY meant to be helpful in assisting me up my intelligence level by filtering out and eradicating all possible lies and means to make me disposable (technically everything that makes me seem like an ignorant and all-believing teenage girl).

Prayers supported my case and decision of such a move, but the mind just seem to keep running away from reality. Subconsciously, I am digging for everything once buried so impeccably by the very self-thought intelligent mind that maneuvered this very game plan.

Ignore those blind spots, ignore those illogical ideas. It was a move no doubt naive, shortsighted, imbecilic and seemingly orchestrated by the simpleminded. But trust me my dear, this would serve me (and maybe you) well in the long long NONG NONG NONG NONG run.

Everything is cast in stone, what's done cannot be undone. I will not see it being undone. There's nothing to be done about it, so, fly away with the wind.

All the best for my A levels! So, for Bio, there'll be Miss W, for Chem, there'll be SC or NYH, for Math, there's definitely NG YIHAN, Econs, Mr P (and maybe Andrew Ng).

It was a fun today, wrecking the kitchen of Andrew's. He never fails to be a good friend, as much as, my mind never fails to drift far far away from reality, from where I'm meant to be.

没有你的幸福,
是我要的.

The mindless

2009-08-08T21:54:00.000+08:00

Music

2009-08-08T13:41:00.000+08:00

My love, sing for me in the full moon night.
Where the bliss would light up even the stormiest times.

My love, sing for me throughout the night.
For happiness would last when you serenade me with that voice so crisp and bright.

My love, let me sing for you in the full moon night.
So that I can melt into your soulful eyes.

My love, let me sing for you thought the night.
For the strength you gave me made everything felt alright.

My love, let us thank god for words and melody.
It is because of that, music is a possibility.

Oh no!

2009-08-07T17:08:00.000+08:00

If hearts were made to flutter,
there would not be love.

I wanted to dedicate a really idiosyncratic post of mine to my AWESOME hairdresser. If not for the FABULOUS mood I am in now, I would have drafted a much lengthier post. A levels is INCREDIBLE. Please get the sarcasm.

Although I must admit, the hair cut was unexpectedly pleasant.

LESS than 3 WEEKS!

2009-07-29T22:16:00.000+08:00

In an attempt to refrain myself from banging my head against the table, I hit the books!

喜欢你 LOUD and PROUD :)

2009-07-24T23:06:00.005+08:00

So excited! So nervous I am shaking!!

Go listen! For me? =]

http://chinesemusicblog.com/news/loud-and-proud-season-6-round-1-group-a

压力的压力

2009-07-20T17:35:00.002+08:00

我想建设一座更大的万哩长城，让我与班隔绝。

理由很长。

不多说。

猜也猜得到。

xie gei wo suo wei de ma

2009-06-27T00:41:00.000+08:00

Shou ji wu fa da chu zhong wen zi, jiu zhi hao yong han yu pin yin, qing duo duo bao han.

Zi cheng shi wo mu qin de ni, wo gan xiang da zhong xuan shi, shuo ni bu pei. Qing wen, shen wei mu qin de ni, chu le ba wo fu yang cheng ren, hai zuo le xie shen me? Wo jue de, cheng ren ni jing le ba wo fu yang cheng ren de ze ren ye tai gao pan ni de neng li le. Zhen de qing wen nin, zhe shi ba nian ling er ge yue, nin jing ze le ma?

Zi cheng shi wo mu qin de ni, dao di dui wo de ren shi you duo shao? Wo he shi huan, he shi chou, ni dong ma? Dui yu wo de xi nu ai le, ni jing li guo ma? Liao jie ma? Mu du guo ma? Wo bu xi han ni you mei you neng li ba wo wei bao, chuan de nuan. Zhi wen, zai hua li de wai ke, ru guo mei you zhen gui de nei rong you shui hui xin shang?

Zi cheng shi wo mu qin de ni, wo cai ni shi ren chuo ren le. Xiao jie, ru guo ni xiang fa fong de hua, qing dao jing shen bing yuan qu. Ru guo bu jie yi, wo ke yi bang ni jiao ji cheng che, yi zhan jiu dao le.

Xiao jie, ci di bu yi jiu liu, yin wei yi ge jia bu shi zhe yang de.

担心

2009-06-15T21:31:00.002+08:00

担心，非常的担心，好担心，无用的担心。

之前虽然知道病情有可能很严重，但没什么去理睬，毕竟只有去照X光才会知道病情的真相。虽然会痛，虽然对我日常生活带来干扰，我还是过一天是一天。

不照X光还不用紧，一照了X光，一整天心情就平复不了。一整天静不下心去读书，胡思乱想，现在既然有股冲动想找人出去发呆。现在，只好等。因为等待而担心，也宁愿担心而等待。自相矛盾。浪费时间。

报告出来了会是怎样？妈说，有可能需要特别治疗。如果动手术的话怎么办？万一手术失败，死了算了也好。万一手术失败，死不了，终身瘫痪就惨了!!!

事到如今，只能担心

抢麦新人王 2009 半决赛

2009-06-07T00:27:00.004+08:00

1. 我不是你想像的那么勇敢
大失水准，所有的脏话都可以出来了啦！唱完就知道死定了！走音，破音，没有观众交流，大大扣分！还是跟玉能 P.K., 要死咯！虽然分数只差他三分左右，我还是输了。
摄影队的人都以为我在哭。披头散发的样子也难怪他们会那么想。有些人也说其实我的表现是因为影响系统干扰才会一落千丈的。谢谢你们。I still think that it's the personal performance that determines the final product, other factor might play a part but there are really minor

2. 喜欢你
在后台拼了老命苦练着首歌。把输了的悲痛化成恋爱的喜悦，超级难！Kelvin 又突然的出现，到后台唱歌换衣。是又 paiseh 又尴尬的。在司仪 (Cecilia) 不断催我尽快做出抉择的情况下，我选了之耀。最终打成平手，TMD 我又必须唱歌。
Drinking gang 说我一边唱歌时一边扭屁股，seriously... 靠！怎么可能！人家都说他们真的被打动了，殿君也说什么“不是女人的女人在唱歌...”。基本上就是一大堆对我表现感到不可思议的感叹。
选错人了啦！若知道自己会得 81.75 的高分，一定 P.K. 勇全。Since he said he would really want to P.K. me cause I really don't want to P.K. him.

3. 再一次拥有
景扬 and I were like rapping the lyrics at the last seconds in attempt to memorise them and we kept psychoing myself that I can beat 之耀, the scenario was crazy and super hilarious.
When I knew I had to sing, I already changed, so I wore t-shirt and shorts and jacket and HEELS and ran out to find people to tell me the lyrics, everyone stunned! Then, of course, I changed back into Birks.
心惊胆跳，最终我和之耀同时进了大决赛。

谢谢大家的支持！感谢你们的降临！我会努力的！我会让你们失望，我会然自己失望。

把一切的不愉快扔掉，让不勇敢的我勇敢向前！

我真的很不开心

2009-05-30T23:46:00.003+08:00

本来不是因该开开心心的吗？本来，那不是一种解脱吗？可是，现在非常懊恼。这是一种难言之苦，也是一种说不出的痛。也只有我，才能化解这悲伤。突破极限！可是如果那么轻易就可以办到的话，怎么叫做突破。如果那么轻易就可以超越的话，怎么叫做极限。

现在只可以说两个字 “努力”
再两个字 “加油”
再四个字 “坚持到底“
最后四个字 ”不能放弃”

真的不可以，你可以吗？

但，我不是你想像的那么勇敢。

study WOOTS!

2009-05-28T21:34:00.002+08:00

GENERAL PAPER BT2 is tomorrow. Let me, increase my vocab in a cool way!

Incapacitate (verb): prevent from functioning in a normal way
example: Loving you, incapacitated me.

Utopia (noun): an imagined place or state of things in which everything is perfect
Dystopia (noun): an imagined place or state in which everything is unpleasant or bad, typically a totalitarian or environmentally degraded one
example: Like a child, I live in a make-believe utopian sanctuary. While, the world is practically near the state of dystopia.

Okay, now I am lazy to think of examples. Let me retain the expensive brain temporarily for it'll drop in value tomorrow.

旁观者清，当局者迷

2009-05-19T23:37:00.003+08:00

On my way to SPH last Saturday from school, I saw Peixuan, coincidentally we were both going to the MRT station. The first thing she asked was, "How's your class?"

I stumbled and fumbled and spoke the truth, "I don't know how to answer that question."
"So it is still the same?"
"The same?"
"Ya, I thought previously..."
At that moment I was touched that someone actually realised, I was also shocked that someone actually realised.
I replied "OMG! Was it so obvious? Oh ya it was that obvious..."

I spent almost my entire life either being jinxed or jinxing others. How fun is that! I can't help but blame it on my greed, or ignorant following back in November 1999. I left those who I had held dear for a chance of getting better a education. Still young and naïve, I took for granted the love I had the who were close, and moved on.

The next few years were hell. Although along the way I meet some friendly samaritans, they never stayed for long. Many just moved on with the crowd- go with the flow they said. Slowly, even the flow stopped passing by. While many who occasionally dropped by commented on how incredibly constant I've remain, it was I who was shocked at how constant they remained in their thinking and observation skills. Needless to say, I have changed. On the surface, the sea looks calm, but you won't know what's brewing inside.

Strangely enough, environments of religious beliefs took a 360° turn in it's attitude towards me. Hypocrisy and hostility are the kindest words I can bestow upon them. However, those are just the superficial reasons to why I left, why I am dreading and why I am confused. If I were to substantiate those adjectives, it would take a lifetime as things that happened never stop happening.

So when Gerard asked what I did for PE today, I told him, I was busy with being despised. No I am not helping my case when I am constantly laughing at myself.

At that moment I really needed a hug to assure me that everything is okay. But, no one is there.

As this wall of self-protecting mechanism is building in process, I remain...

Such an ambiguous post. 至少，当局者清楚来龙去脉了。

where's the will?

2009-05-14T21:54:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, you took the last fitness test in your live and you've gotten a bronze. However, you have lost the capacity of a child to believe in miracles and to be fully convinced that nothing is impossible.

"Don't give up!"
"C'mon it's the last round"
"Bigger strides! And regulate your breathing!!"
All four of them shouted. They were running and pushing (Germaine did) and encouraged me at the same time. A part of me just wanted to say thank you and ask them to shut up while another part of me was caught in the dilemma of not wanting to let them down and giving up.

While running, many things flashed through my mind in the midst of trying to grasp for air and concentrate on not falling down amidst the racket. Mainly, it was about the 2.4 in secondary 4.

My class was full of athletes, as usual, the dancers, the runners and the uniform group people. Then there's me, the choir girl. It was the last year of secondary school life and I really wanted gold for NAPFA to look nice on my report book.

I remembered that fateful day before the run I told Vivian I would beat her, finally. Obviously, she took my words half-heartedly, but I wasn't going to let her off that easily. Throughout the run, I constantly pushed myself to be in front of her. Even when I knew she was far behind, I pressed on. I prayed and ran, at the same time being so proud of myself being so faithful and being so proud of God for giving me the strength I needed. So the bible said, ask and you shall be given, seek and ye shall find, knock and the door would be open unto you.

Needless to say, I got the grade for gold. However, I did not manage to attain a gold due to some problems with a hairy monster for 5 stations (but that's another story of its own). According to school's arrangements, I'll have to take a retest weeks after. Therefore meaning that I had to run again.

It was a really dramatic and horrifying experience after my first run as I fainted 6 times on the way to class and only decided to take the lift up to class on the 6th level after failing to literally crawl a flight of stairs. I would seriously rather die than relive that traumatic experience. Still, PE teacher didn't give in to my constant refusal to run- until I cried.

I can blame it on the form of running, blaming that it is psychologically different to run in one big round and 6 small rounds- preferring the former. I can blame it on the terrain for the difficulty in running, blaming it to be full of slopes that impedes our progression in speed- when thousands other Nan Huarians did the same thing. These are the supposedly flaws of the discrepancies in the testing of 2.4 I've fussed over.

Similarly, I found myself lost between finding a comfort zone within cynical and naïve. Often, I find myself, as ironic as it may sound, being on two sides at the same time. I was fighting an unnecessary battle in my head as I struggled to surpass my physical limits. The arguments used by both stands were often derived from unfounded worries and insignificant basis.

Nuff' said as I thank all those who ran my me and tried all means to assist me in passing. Really, I'm touched. I was just too exhausted after the run to say a word and too loner in class to talk to anyone.

Without strong will power, where would you stand in life?

Perhaps my limit rests where psychological will is unchallenged by physical inability.

All I really needed was solitude, away from the constant judging of the cruel society with person beside, quietly encouraging and pushing me on with words from the bottom of the heart. Because, at times, actions really cheers much louder than words.

Replying tags

2009-05-12T21:10:00.006+08:00

Realised my tagboard is dying and flooded with unreplied tags. so....

1.
cecilia: haha get your license with my dad! ie: learn from him! haha
cphy: Haha yea I can learn from him. Told my mom I would learn right after A's

2.
Ryan: women drivers. lol
cecilia: lol whats with male and the whole woman drivers thing
Ryan: specifically to bimbos, thankyou.
cphy: SHUT UP LRY! I know what or who you are referring to.

3.
yelin: here to say HI cos I m still not sleeping and there s school tmr!
cphy: HAHA you haven't broken my record of not sleeping and having school the next day. I just broke my own record yesterday. I think I slept at 4+.. O.o almost died of fatigue

4.
daCoolioDude: o.O no updates? haha=]
JPHM:D: eh, update larh. aft ur b'dae thn dowan update liao ah. -.-" always use comp but dowan to update.
cphy: UPDATED! I am trying to use the computer less ah! Besides, my life is not so colourful and appealing. Less updates won't really matter. Haha marcus your blog is more interesting la!! Just don't be so EMO!! My birthday you still need me to update meh? You were there wad...

5.
JPHM:D: and link me !!!!!!!!
cphy: I will (along with other people's blog) when I edit my template

6.
chunky: sorry! I went to watch tian leng on my bday larh... asked u u said no $ rmbr...
chunky: wanting jie herself cannot secure tickets leh. but dianjun said can ask box office I'm going to try this saturday haha =D so we might still have some hopes
cphy: REALLY NO MONEY MAH!! But if I knew there were no more tickets left I would have gone (even if I have to beg or borrow). try to get tickets ahh!! I WANNA WATCH!!!!!!

7.
daCoolioDude: 为什么说"为什么"？ =X
steph: hanoh. why why.
xinyue: 十万个为什么！so boliao ah. wei shen me what?
cphy: Haha 为什么 a lot of things. A lot, A LOT! =]

8.
xb: ♥your latest posts!!

cphy: haha 过奖了, many others love ALL your posts!

就不多说，一句话就够。

2009-05-06T22:52:00.002+08:00

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My 18th Birthday!

2009-04-21T23:30:00.001+08:00

30 more minutes and it is (finally) over.

There is still this Saturday and it marks the end of the celebrations.
In total, a week.
In short, prolonged torture.
In all, short lived happiness.
In Chinese, 追求完美的路上，越不完美.

Still, I love all you who made this importantly insignificant day seem so insignificantly important. I took photos, though not a lot, and I may go in depth when I have the time and mood to.

For now, I shall return to actually writing my diary (if I actually not bore myself to death first)

I am officially 18!
Of all things, I am (I guess) most cite to get my driver's license. The rest just seem so importantly insignificant compared to the insignificantly important piece of paper that makes me legal on the road.

Happy earth day

1 Day and counting!

2009-04-20T23:30:00.003+08:00

To be more exact, it is coming in 30 minutes!

Dinner out with the girls! I am really tired now, so I shall keep things real short.
Dinner was as expensive as expected, but Marche has NO SERVICE CHARGE!!! Damn cool!! Maybe we should go there more often.
I kinda realised I am the ONLY single soul! The girls and their boyfriends, FIANCE, etc... Amber had a great time making jokes about the China men and Steph with the Shiyong jokes. I was going crazy.

Although Ruth and Cheryl couldn't make it, but it is fine. We can always have another date.

You just gota love them.

I love them for loving me the way I used to and will always be.
&I love them for being them the way they were and how they blossomed to be.

2 Days and counting!

2009-04-19T23:03:00.003+08:00

YESTERDAY
Morning:
Played taboo with the couple
Had AWESOME branch

Afternoon:
Peixun Ying meeting
Had very nice jelly beans

Night:
Dinner at Villa Bali
Birthday cake from Valentino's
The Ng's and relatives came
Ng brothers and Png children went Vivo and did nothing
We then cabbed down to Katong for pool
I stink so badly at pool
Lost to both Ng brothers at pool

Wee hours of the morning:
5 of us sang
Yihan bought 2 bottles of Heineken and a bottle of Cola with 8% alcohol
Yikai can sing better than Yihan (basically, Yihan is monotonous)
Evil Yihan keeps ejecting my songs
He was so mean he pissed me off

TODAY
Morning:
Got dressed and slacked around the house

Afternoon:
Waited for an hour for people at Harbourfront MRT
While waiting I saw random people like Jiaying, Luyao, Junquan and Joy (and BF)
Talked to the 2 latter
Twan and Loo pang seh
lunched at Bistro 103 with Vic, KK and Weijia
Vic was so full he can barely walk
Went B&J's for a second round
Roamed Vivo aimlessly

Night:
Gobbled and swallowed dinner without tasting and chewing
Ran with heels to Esplanade
Late for CATS and had to sit outside
Missing the first 20 minutes left me blur for the rest of the show

Realised I got a cut on my finger (but don't know why)

I REGRET NOT BUYING THE CATS PROGRAM BOOKLET AND SOUNDTRACK SO MUCH!!

4 days and counting

2009-04-18T11:31:00.000+08:00

You said
"I can always act like I don't care
But I can't pretend it doesn't affect me"

I am at Peixuan's house now!!!!!!!! Food was AWESOME! AWESOME!!!!! Dessert was great! I loved it when DJ said "IT IS FRIDAY NIGHT!!" This is my favourite period of the week, followed by Saturday. I hate Sunday, because the next day would be Monday and the dreaded week follows.

It was great to see the vibe J1s have towards IOTA, let's hope it really last. I would have to have an EXCO that actually functions! Please...

I say
"You can't stop things from happening
But you can change the way you view it"

5 Days and counting!

2009-04-16T16:42:00.002+08:00

I was so tired after coming home from dinner yesterday that I just slept! (Oh no another break in the blogging chain!) The lethargy didn't subside and it was brought forward to today. I practically just stoned the whole day, couldn't concentrate at all! Thank God today was light (but at least I'm not as tired as Jonathan, he actually slept during one of the uninteresting dances and God bless him, he has training later.)

Breathing and heartbeat is getting more irregular.
Come what may!
and so in May, I shall treat NUS like home.
Appointment madness!!

Failed attempts to ask people out to study, and the other way don't always turn out good too!

&SO MANY THINGS just go on.. and on...

7 Days and counting!

2009-04-14T22:54:00.002+08:00

Wow! Time flies..

I'm so tired right now, my eyes are all burnt out from all the knitting (even the mac battery is running low). I'm suddenly lost for words now, I blame it on tiredness.

Swam, studied with Joy, booked Marche, wasn't explicit enough, booking Bistro 103, going to message people, hated school, thank God for a short school day.

I've got loads more to crap, but there's no more energy left in my eyes to do so.

Individual Medley for 25m: 1 minute 23 seconds (SUPER SLOW!)

8 Days and counting!

2009-04-13T22:06:00.002+08:00

I was really kinda reluctant to go to school this morning because I was feeling really sick and monday is a long day! But surprisingly, today's lessons were really effective (I didn't sleep!).

I can't remember much about today except when Gerard asked me over and said he had something to tell me. Guess what, HE READ MY BLOG! Like WTS! I am lazy to type much, but he is funny. Thanks people! =]

The day before, Ronald said he knew what the countdown was about (I find him hard to trust sometimes, he has too sweet a glib)

I have much more to say about how birds of the same feathers flock together and how opposite poles attract and my theory of how the sucker loves gold-plated shit.

OHH LONG DAY TML! GATTACA! Swim! Long day!

& I knit the love =]

9 Days and counting!

2009-04-12T12:52:00.003+08:00

I MISSED ONE DAY OF BLOGGING! OH NO I BROKE THE CHAIN!

Yesterday I had really bad tummy ache when I was about to go home, it became worse when I was actually on the train home! It felt like a thousand knifes piercing through. It was unbearable. Felt really cold on the way home, although I know xb and yf must have felt even colder because they were drenched from head to toe (and Yang Fan was in a WET singlet). I couldn't laugh although both them and Zheng Chao were super funny. The twins were pure evil I tell you. They know I cannot laugh but still said very funny things!

I went home. Rested. Had diarrhea. Rested and slept. I didn't even have the energy to get up to eat dinner and I just slept. Today morning I woke up really sick and I'm burning all over. I remembered FCY asking me this "Why you liddat, what did you do?" He was referring to me being sick.

I braved through QM despite the relentless pain of tonsillitis and hyperventilation and giddiness that came with my nervousness. I sang 再一次拥有 and 爱情旅程. THANKS TO THOSE WHO WAITED OUTSIDE FOR ME! =] THANK YELIN, JING YANG, YUHAN, XIAO BIN, YANG FAN, ZHENG CHAO! =] Thanks loads loads. Thanks for helping me to stimulate the auditions in TXY room and listening to be being nonsensical.

I loved yesterday morning though. Everyone not sleeping. Crapping (practically sprouting nonsense about the Ruffles chips) until around 6 in the morning. Everyone just lying everywhere to sleep.

And for the EMO kid, this is for you. Really hope things get better for you guys. Idk what happened, but I know you are really affected.

再一次拥有 Zai Yi Ci Yong You - Kong Shi Jia

Suddenly, 9 days later seemed meaningless.

呼吸声慢慢的坚强

周围的空气似乎都不见了

11 Days and counting!

2009-04-10T22:46:00.003+08:00

Had an expensive branch. When all the way to Bedok to K. It was self-high all the way (meaning the enthusiasm isn't infectious). Rushed back to Clementi. Qun went my house. Bathed and passed motion. Conducted Pizza 101. Fetched the Lings. Ate. Played TOD. Did SAI KANG. Sianed. Blogging. Got scammed by LRY to do a stupid quiz. Blogged.

Is so dead for tomorrow's auditions.

SIANED. is falling MORE ill...

12 Days and counting!

2009-04-09T21:50:00.003+08:00

Wow, sports day! I'm surprised that I am here. Half the class is running, the other half is missing because there's only Stella and I on the gallery steps. Fiona was having a hard time just now because there wasn't enough people running.

Let's look at the list of eligible runners:
1. Christine: she was from track! (not running)
2. Eunice: does 2.4 damn well (running)
3. Germaine: from ODAC and always trains (running)
4. Dawn: rock climber who also always runs (running)
5. Alicia: is a dancer! (not running, dance SYF)
6. Georgina: just recovered from a hairline crack on her right ankle. (running)
7. cphy: like seriously, I would be their last resort. (OBVIOUSLY not running)
8. Stella: second last in class for 2.4. (not running)
9. Fiona: canoers can run like mad (running)
10. Benjamin: he can sprint all 2.4! (running)
11. Alfred: hurt his leg I guess (not running)
12. Mason: can sprint like siao! (running)
13. Thomas: he plays polo and does NAPFA with asthma (not running, lung infection)
14. Jonathan: hell yeah, marathon runner and sprinter, damn cool! (not running, season)
15. Cheney: drama kid, soccer fan, has sprinter legs (running)
16. Gerard: Track boy (not running, H3 consultation)
17. Nathanael: does crazy pull-ups! (not running)
18. Damien: can’t do sit up but he can run (not running)
19. John: has powerfully huge calves but sprained his ankle yesterday (running)
20. Januver: is super talented at sports or games (running)
21. Zachary: Permanent MC (not running)
22. Clement: soccer boy! (not running, knee injury)

I think it was heats 2, when loy fatt guys fell twice. The first guy laid flat on the floor for a while, it was hilarious. He only budged when someone went over to help him up. Along the way, he almost tripped again! From 2nd to last position, how sad.

We got a medal. We got 2nd place for B finals! We got back our PW results. I got a B. Went out with Jie Lei on a spontaneous lunch to gorge ourselves with sushi. Tuesday’s swim coach is disgusting. I am tired now. DEAD TIRED. Wee… tomorrow I am going to be singing. Wee… I am having a bad throat. Wee…. I think I am falling ill and developing a fever. Wee…. Food poisoning.

At that moment, all was lost.
没喜悦，没悲伤，没泪水，没欢呼。
沉重的气氛里，被麻醉的心灵特别的被重视。
一声不吭的，离开了教室。
心想，值得吗？
心想，天冷你在那里。

Thanks love, you make things better! =] (with this)

13 Days and counting!

2009-04-08T18:55:00.001+08:00

TOMORROW IS SPORTS DAY AND ON GOOD FRIDAY, BELOVED TXYs AND KARAOKE!

I totally slacked during P.E. I had no idea what to do! I guess Mr Yeo also gave up on us today, that's why he didn't insist on us going over to the hall. I heard there were games but I was confused because I am supposed to NAPFA but Mr Yeo did not test me and Gerard and You Rong said I had to do NAPFA. I'm lost! Turned out, there were games. All I did was sit at the gallery steps and copied Biology notes (absent from school, MC!). I also got suaned by Ben because I wasn't passing NAPFA (in fact I wasn't passing anything at all) and I am 'obstructing' the class from getting the cash prize for having 100% passes in NAPFA in the class.

In the morning, Alfred told me that he read my blog! Zomg zomg zomg! Having a person in class knowing your blog and yourself being not exactly a fan of school is certainly something not very pleasant (fragmented sentence structure, please consider revising, LRY, help!).

Today, I've finally gotten the answer to the question Mr Toh had for us during moral ed yesterday. The most statement that irritates me the most is "How much did you score for ...?". Stupid Gerard and Niang! Keep reminding me that I have bad grades and that I'm a chief editor who failed GP (and everything else). Happens so that there was a stack of model essays being passed around for everyone to have a copy each, so one of them said "chief editor, why is your essay not inside?" They are real jerks! But, you haven't seen the worst of the Saints.

Those guys are just making fun of me (all the time) but that's just at most being childish and immature. The real evil is hypocrisy. Need I say more?

Today's econs and maths tutorials made me laugh! Ting's not listening in class and questioning Mr Peh's questions and John being called 'Mr Kiasu' by Mr Toh (after he spent sleepless nights thinking who John resembles.)

Right now i'm impatiently awaiting formy sisiter to reach Cityvibes (Clementi’s new shopping centre). I asked her over so that we can both get something to eat before dinner because I do not have enough money to get both her bubble tea and my snack.

I can’t wait till mom gives the green light for my dental surgical operation. BRACES!!! (and implants) OH THE HORROR AND THE PAIN!

Joke of the day: On the way home, my half eaten fish ball flew out of the stick while I was being dramatic (again)

14 Days and counting!

2009-04-07T19:35:00.004+08:00

14 is a lovely number!

Since I know my 1 hour computer time wouldn't be able to fit in fb and blogging, I shall now make use of my break in school to blog! (And then study, since I'm alone in class, again)
For now, things have been very hilarious in school (and I hope it would stay that way, it keeps me awake)
1. It was hilarious how one is so fickle and has her opinion easily swayed and having no principles of her own. Suddenly, I pity her a lot. Suddenly, I feel fortunate not to be regarded as a friend. Suddenly, I think I should try taking on Gerard's advice.
2. It was also hilarious looking at the new ez-link card photos of others. From left to right, from top to bottom, we have: (top row) Damien Niang, Zachary Yong, Eunice Khoo, Dawn Lim, (bottom row) Germaine Leng, Fiona Tan, Stella Lim, Georgina Low. Enjoy.

No more swimming again today :( this is awful. I have lessons until 6pm in school, with only 2 30mins break (now and 2.30pm). Hope I can still consume my medications on time. I haven't been a really good girl recently and medicine taste disgusting!

Something funny certainly did happen doing moral ed. We were told to state what actions and emotions irritate us and Mr Toh said something like "I hope this doesn't rub you down the wrong way" and John said "what way". It was sick yet funny at the same time. There was also Alicia's domineering friend whom she tries to be patient with and Clement accidentally revealed the friend was a 'he'. Not unexpected though, just funny.

GP P1 review was also entertaining. It was Casey Leong lecturing, of course it is good! Come the P2 review, there was a strong juxtaposition when Anson Pang lectured. It was hard to keep awake (and excited) for his portion of the review when the peak has passed.

The best is yet to come! J1s and J2s had a clash of lecture venue. It was hilarious how the students (mainly J2s) tried to fuel the tension between the teachers by shouting "fight, fight! Fight!" They were oblivious to the fact that the teachers can't hear them in the midst of much noise or confusion (and maybe they were ignoring them).

Finally, our hopes of having chemistry lecture cancelled were dashed. Being outnumbered, we were forced to retreat to the AVA, a small hut with its sole residents being choristers. All I can say for Chemistry lecture is that people should just stop complaining and suck it up and just listen.

So here I am, stuck in a terrible traffic jam along Bukit Timah road during dinnertime. I thank God for making such a long and supposedly dreary school day especially hilarious.

Today, I've laughed more than I had in this year!

15 Days and counting!

2009-04-06T17:54:00.002+08:00

I have decided, I would only use the computer for an hour each day. I must admit, it is tough.

I got back my results for BT1 today. Failed EVERYTHING! Not that I didn't see it coming, I was just hoping for the best. School seemed really short today although it ended at 3.30pm! I guess it was the nature of the lessons (and how I slept during Chemistry tutorials, I guess Ong was really pissed because almost everyone fell asleep).

Another reason why I don't want to turn 18: PMT Conference is on my birthday!!!

Today Gerard was being especially nice and offered to talk to me and asked me really weird questions. He was really frustrated today, over something we both know. There is a reason why I hate school. The really idiotic people! Welcome to the DARK side of the Saints... how ironic.

I am typing really fast right now! Trying to be a wee bit discipline right now! Although I would not use the Mac, maybe I'll leave iTunes running since I do not have an iPod to listen to music. Maybe next time I shall not fb so much!

I cannot wait for friday!
2 more days of school! <3
I LOVE THIS WEEK!
TOP ONE OR BEDOK HERE I COME!

16 Days and counting!

2009-04-05T23:39:00.002+08:00

Today's post shall be short: did nothing I should have done and slept real late.

SHORT and sweet! =]

17 Days and counting!

2009-04-04T22:36:00.004+08:00

17 more days!!!! I cannot wait, but now, somehow, I don't want it to come. Now it just feels like nothing special would happen. Yea 18! So what?

*双胞胎之战*

There is supposed to be a photo, but I'm lazy to upload.

What is a JC2 doing, not studying on a weekend evening? What is she doing on the 7th floor of the SPH building watching people play ball and why is she actually eating her medicine here?

Today's activities were every light, yet some how exasperating. Many things are set in place, although still not cast in stone.

Watching them play brings back a lot of memories, good memories, wonderful memories. But, memories are in fact just pure memories.

It makes you think, how miraculous it is that a simple game of bball actually reflects the on-goings of the whole organisation. The way things are done now (competitive, swift and concentrated) and they things were being done previously (friendly, casual and FUN).

I finally realise why people disappear after a while. It is this sense of disconnectedness and generation gap that makes one lose the initial fire and passion that burned.

I can't believe it, but I actually miss those guys! I miss the Hwa Chong gang, I miss the crazy girls, I miss the NTU monsters. I miss all of them so much! I miss them so much that I feel like crying.

I am so sian now. What am I doing here? Why am I not home? Why am I not studying? Oh no! I'm confused, terribly.

Let me get away!
But as Celin Dion sings "When you want it the most, there no easy way out"

So I went home alone. Xiao Bin, Yang Fan and Yelin would be dining and if I don't go home for dinner again, my mom would freak! I was sleeping and I missed the Hwa Chong stop, I know I wasn't fast enough to spot the KAP bus stop so I alighted at 6th avenue.

On the way home, I just remembered to take my medicine. BUT, I forgot that I had to take my medicine on the way home so I let Yang Fan finish my water. So, I drank milo to swallow the pill instead. I tried pushing it down my throat with saliva but it doesn't work. Felt awful!

I'm so tired (and I'm screwing my sleep cycle up) even though there was really nothing going on today. I guess the heat while walking to the Pasir Laba camp site cooked my brain and kept me consistently dehydrated and giddy.

It was family day but since Zhi Peng's family isn't free, Yuhan and I went over. Foxtrot, bed 10, I remember. Zhi Peng tried to pass as off as family, naming one of us as Lee Xiao Hui, but failed. With such an awful name, who would wanna be his next-of-kin? I'm so sad Victor isn't in camp!

Fan Zhi Wei is really a block of wood. Cannot communicate! &Yuhan laughs...

Well, it wasn’t that bad being home for dinner. There’s my favourite soup and I got to eat pepper crabs!!!!! =] I should really ought to get people home for dinner on Saturdays since there would be so much food! Then, I won’t get scolded by my mom.

18 Days and counting!

2009-04-03T23:28:00.004+08:00

The badly swollen tonsils and the strong urge to sing.

To which should be satisfied?

Oh no! I heard on the radio, that there's this old man who experienced discomfort in the tummy and died. Oh no! Would I die? What if I did? Choy choy choi!
I'm on the taxi now and there's this really cute care with orange paint and pretty prints all over. It is super cute! I'm super random.

Just watched 12 rounds and it wa really interesting! I was like "how could anyone be so smart?". Through this, I've thought of coming up with a very interesting game. No prices for guessing though, it is pretty much obvious.

I had medical leave for today and spent the whole day in an attempt to tidy up my very messy room. I took a photo of it with photo booth and showed LRY.

Although I caved in when my dogs are let loose around the house, I just can't bare to let them roam around the house alone. Jojo don't really care if she has company, but Mon Mon is very dependent on me and sticks very close to me too! He is the loveliest thing! Just a little bit hard to communicate with sometimes.

What did I accomplish today?

I did manage to take all my medications that is required of me for lunch, and I would be taking my dinner medications soon =]

18 days!!! Any suggestions on places for food? (That is affordable yet good)

Swim Team

2009-04-02T21:30:00.001+08:00

Swim was great today, I got the chance of honing my skills for my favourite swim stroke. I need to get the left hand correct! The right hand and the kick is perfectly fine... Just my left hand! After perfecting the form, time to work on the function. Aim: make freestyle my niche and practically glide on water!

Today was also awesome because someone is not on duty!! Whoo-oo! This is a bit mean, but he isn't exactly someone pleasantly normal. Besides, I won't want people I know seeing me in a swimsuit! Not to mention that the someone is a person of the opposite gender.

2 days (or as my sister says, 1 day) of medical leave from school is totally awesome and fabulous and I guess that means I won't be going down to get my results.

But, frequenting the hospital would mean more medicine. Although they taste really horrid, the gooy syrup and corn-flour like chewy table, I have learnt my lesson to consume them with pride and honour for they don't come cheap. To prove that I'm taking my medication seriously, I've packed my bottles and tablets into a nice, big, blue, semi-transparent Acuvue plastic ziplog bag. I plan to carry this 'burden' around until one day, it is all gone! People, next time if you see me, please remind me to eat my medicine especially before, during and after meals period. DO NOT allow me to get away with "later then eat" for the later would never come!

No school tomorrow, life concert's tomorrow. Although I know I should always place God as first priority, somehow I just can't have sufficient drive and determination to do that.

What is stopping me?
What is stopping you?

Another visit to NUH

2009-04-02T15:43:00.002+08:00

Like a Frankenstein, I'm falling apart. I need my Einstein to put the bolts and nuts back together again.

I'm Now blogging from NUH, but how on earth is that possible right? Well, it is possible to first draft it out on outlook email and send it over to my email and copy and paste and post! This is a long tedious process, but there is an even longer wait here.

I wasn't feeling too well, my stomach ached again. I have no idea why, but it actually is affecting my breathing and I'm experiencing giddiness (how does it both link?). This started from yesterday and I went home to rest instead, which resulted in me sleeping the whole of yesterday. I should be studying right now, but I can't concentrate (maybe, I can after doing this).

It will be a long wait! I'll b missing out on maths lecture, econs tutorial, chemistry consultations. It is not that I really care, but I think I should. (Come again the grey area between duty and one's willingness, or the moral obligations of duty being one's willingness) A mother was just heard shouting over the phone that she'd be bringing her daughter to Gleneagles because receiving medical treatment at NUH (which she said as NUS) would take around 2 hours. It is almost 1.30pm, what about my swimming lesson?

Had lunch at NUH main lobby and the food was inedible! Cast away all stereotypes that hospital food is plain and unfit for human consumption. Unfit for human consumption I must definitely agree, but it is about the food fare sold here. Plain is an under rated comment on the taste of the food here! I must say, it is bursting with flavour. I'm not coining a hyperbole here and I'm serious with the food having much flavour, perhaps a little too much. When I got my order, I was practically taken aback by the looks of the food (I almost wanted to step back and run away, but too late, I've paid). The char siew rice looked oddly coloured. The meat was black and brown, such a special colour, away from the norm of red coloured meat. When I took a bite, it was as salty as eating a teaspoon of salt. What was meant to be an appetite-whetting meal that costs $3 turned to be a case of paying money to stuff the inedible down my fussy throat. While eating that absolutely horrid dish, I was pining for the real taste of sweet char siew back at Bradelle.

I am still waiting and the sky is turning threatening. The NUH emergency has an increasing number of injured SAF soldiers. I'm getting tired and all my sentences do not make sense when put together.

I can't wait for tomorrow!!! It would be a very significant day when I'll start the countdown to a very special day that marks the existence of a very special person that is dear to me :)

Since, there is still time, I can write about yesterday. There was nothing special going on yesterday but I remembered being exceptional joyous at night. This is the second time such unexplanable feeling of extreme positiveness fell on me.

I'm looking forward to seeing the doctor, looking forward to getting home, looking forward to swimming, looking forward to any karaoke session (which I hope lingying would really have one because I heard the newbies talking about it last week) and I'm looking forward to tomorrow! Thus this post ended at 2 (with the author still at the hospital after waiting for an hour and a half)

I'm coming back! This time, with more medications (and specialists appointments)! Lord I pray for determination and discipline to actually eat those disgusting chemicals.

It's a love love journey

2009-03-30T21:33:00.002+08:00

It is really a journey from school to Shaw (Lido), along the way I saw long lost friends. Daichao spotted me, I spotted Yong Yue. There was this real special kind of feeling, it was nostalgic. =] Love the pleasant surprises, would love it more if there were more pleasant surprises.

Surprisingly met Cecilia on the way up the long escalators of Shaw (Lido). I love that place! I love the memories, I love the way the memories are able to influence the mind. I would love to relive the memories again. I would love to do so many things. I really would love to...

So, all thanks to DJ, we got complimentary passes to watch a movie! LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOADS!! THANKS THANKS THANKS THANKS SO SO SO SO MUCH! =] 2 girls, 2 passes, 1 chick flick "He's just NOT that into you". I realised we both laugh at the same unique parts that the other people do not.

From the whole movie, I've learnt something new and reinforced my belief.

A guy would do EVERYTHING and ANYTHING if he wants to go out with you
Fairy tales do not just happen in Disney, I will have mine too! <3

To Thia,
勇敢的美女大小姐，虽然我不知道你会不会看到我的部落阁，但我想告诉你，你很勇敢！我超级的佩服，万分之一的佩服，百分之百的为你高兴，至少你有了答案（而我永远不会知道）。世界很大！你一定会幸福的！

Tagged on Facebook by Lydia, Cecilia, Yuxiang, Yelin, Silei, Dianjun, Yuhan

2009-03-29T22:26:00.003+08:00

PICK 20 RANDOM PEOPLE.. DON’T READ THE QUESTIONS
THIS IS MUCH MORE FUN WITHOUT CHEATING

1. Lydia
2. Cecilia
3. Dianjun
4. Silei
5. Yuxiang
6. Yelin
7. Xiao Bin
8. Yang Fan
9. Guo Chang
10. Yuhan
11. Yuhui
12. Tangjie
13.Cheng Siang
14. Siying
15. Xian Hui
16. Jun Zhan
17. Bo Cheng
18. Ren Yuan
19. Edna
20. Damien

THE QUESTIONS:
• How did you meet 10? (Yuhan)
Heard a lot about the very very very noisy girl and I was shocked that someone can out noise me. Well we just met one fine day in SPH, I forgot the occasion.

• How did u meet 6? (Yelin)
HOHOHO! Ying Xin of R23. She was the highest in her group during her own orientation. She was the FIRST of R23 to add me on Facebook. By the name of Eleen, I forgot who that was but I remembered the face.

• What would you do if 20 and 15 dated? (Damien and Xian Hui)
Firstly, they are not each other's type! Secondly, I doubt they are very close. But, if they were to get together I would be so happy for them!!!!! =] Erm, but it won't last because.. (refer to point one)

• Did you ever like 9? (Guo Chang)
As friends, of course! Fellow TXYs man! Super super super cute guy and a really cute character too! Romantically, impossible. Not my type =]

• How did u meet 4? (Silei)
Seriously, I forgot how I really got to know her. Obviously I met her in SPH, such a big shot (and big head) hard to not see her around.

• Would number 1 and 2 make a good couple? (Lydia and Cecilia)
If the were lesbians maybe. If they are not, maybe too! Erm, I just don't see a future for them.

• Describe 8. (Yang Fan)
He is nice, has good taste for music, hopelessly racist, very funny, super spontaneous, sporty, is single, has a fetish with flying fringes, once had a crush on a girl, loves basketball, lives in Clementi, lost his wallet many times, has funny cards in his wallet, has a twin, is the younger twin, can't wait to be 18, studies in HCI, sings "You make me wanna" well. This is what I gathered from Saturday (TXY day).

• Do you like 12? (Tangjie)
Ya duh! If not, why would I study with her, shop with her and bought the exact same shoe design as her? Although sometimes we do get on each others' nerves, she never fails to let me see things in a really different light.

• Tell me something about 17. (Bo Cheng)
He is too protective of people, studies in HCJC, hides behind girls while playing dodge-starchballs, is really sad to get hit numerous times by the starchballs even though he was hiding behind girls, is in publicity for huang chen, attracted many girls during Ying Xin R24, has a huge ego, is a silently nice guy (when I mean silently, it is really quiet as gold!), has a brother in TXY, is a busy guy now, was super stressed out during Ying Xin R24, is constantly irritated by me.

• How did u meet 7? (Xiao Bin)
HAHAHAHA! Oh the sweet coincidence! I spotted him during Ying Xin R23. Then, I really wanted to bash him up because he said something bad and had a real qian bian look during one of the games.

• How did u meet 13? (Cheng Siang)
One day, he walked into the TXY room while TJ and I were studying. He said something witty (as usual) and Lydia and Ruoxi commented on how unusual behaviour his was. That was the start of something sweet yet tragic.

• What would you do if 1 just confessed they liked you? (Lydia)
Erm... she wouldn't. But if that really happens *touches wood*, I would say "Sorry, this is not meant to be!"

• When was the last time you talked to number 15? (Xian Hui)
Virtually, it was yesterday over MSN. Face to face, it was on Saturday! =]

• How did u meet 16? (Jun Zhan)
It was during Ying Xin R22, my own orientation. He led my group around for the amazing race game. Then, he was really quiet and we seldom spoke. I thought he was scary! Although that impression only lasted for the orientation.

• Would you ever date 3? (Dian Jun)
Why not? We just went out on Friday, along with the drinking gang! Stuffed sushi down our throats like there's no tomorrow!

• Would u date 11? (Yuhui)
This is hilarious. Of course I would. If he even replies me on MSN and my SMSes!! Sleepovers are enough I guessed. We had numerous sleepovers. Dates? NONE! Haha, we are fellow April babies anyways (I don't know how this links up)

• What is 10's last name? (Yuhan)
Thia!

• Would you ever want to be in a serious relationship with 5? (Yuxiang)
NO! Friend, possible. Lifelong partners, no way! I bet he would agree too, he wouldn't wanna be deaf.

• How did u meet 18? (Ren Yuan)
When Shu Wen called Ren Yuan and Yuhui over for a game of daidi during Tianying Chalet back in June 2007.

• What do you think about 20? (Damien)
He is weird yet unique. He is special and smart, yet lazy.

• What would you like to tell 14 right now? (Siying)
ZOMG! I want to see your ezlink card photo too!!! OSY!

• How did you meet 19? (Edna)
When Shu Wen pulled Edna out to help me open the gate during their Wen Hua Ying meeting. She was sporting her famously huge shoes and a really interesting t-shirt.

• What would u say to 3: (Dian Jun)
Let's both get good grades for A's!

• When did u last see 4? (Silei)
We both don't know the exact answer to that. But if I wasn't wrong, it was on one of the Saturdays where we held Ying Xin R24 meeting.

This is really amazing. I have no idea how I actually am able to conjure up all these memories when I fail to remember what to even study for tests (not to mention ace them!)

First time grounded

2009-03-29T17:06:00.002+08:00

Okay, my mom didn't exactly say "YOU ARE GROUNDED!" *Imagine Donald Trump saying you're fired!*
What she said (screamed) over the phone was "你明天再出门，你就不用回来了!" *Imagine an unreasonable wife shrieking at an overly loaded husband*

Let me try to embrace this moment of freedom at home before mom starts screaming and shouting and tearing the house down when she gets home. Oh! Sweet sweet tranquility! With only the pitter patter sounds of the thunderstorm against the glass of my window, I shall began.

Although being grounded means I can't go out and study with TJ, I guess I did learn something from today (without hitting the books). I had decided that a more structured Sunday would do me more good and I love busking in the innocence of my beloved! I have found out I am still unable to forget that love- the love for ballet (why did I quit?)

I would get Joy Kwan Ai Ting to morning call me every Sunday and pull me outa bed for swimming and studying with her. That makes it a total of 4 times a week (or maybe 3, since Saturdays are kinda out!)

Spending quality time today with my beloved thought me my life's essential. Looking at their innocence, I knew that I didn't lose mine, I just misplaced it, but I found it, it was all along with them. Although bathing for my dogs really frustrates me when they lick their shampoo, it is so nice to have them cleaned up and cute again!

I still need to find a better bedroom for them. Beloved doggies, HANG IN THERE!

The heavens have stopped crying
& you shall smile!

Realize (Real LIES)

2009-03-29T00:49:00.003+08:00

Take time to realise... the REAL lies
I can't spell it out for you

Sometimes I just wonder, do you have to always keep it in? Do you have to always hold it together? Do you have to be rationale and always be so strong? It wouldn't kill to just let the tears flow, it wouldn't kill to just let the words go loose. It wouldn't kill. Would it?

Although I would really agree that it is tough. It is so difficult to be unbiased and unfazed in times of difficult situations. Perhaps something is lacking deep inside? Think about it. The tears, the words, there is a need for a channel for those to be unleashed from the bursting bottle of emotions.

Family seems like a good choice, but I know you would never tell them anything. They don't listen anyways. You can't tell those "holy" people anything too! They don't give a shit. You can't tell the other 2 groups too. They won't know what's going on. You can't tell them either! They are the ones making it go on.

Although you can always turn to me because I am always there, it is bad to always keep things to yourself. I can't run away anyway, where to? Maybe you should really find someone, in the know, neutral, objective, innocent, trustworthy, always there for you. Then, you can realise =]

I realised...
1. Yangfan has good taste of music.
2. The twins are close and different.
3. Guochang has same taste in arts as me! =]
4. I hate my mom!
5. What real cheering up is. <3

6. Maybe something is really missing.

realize - colbie caillat

DNA Personality Test (recommended by LRY)

2009-03-21T22:30:00.004+08:00

about you:
you are an experiencer

-Your inquisitive nature, imagination, and hands-on practicality make you an EXPERIENCER.
-Although you have an active imagination, you also concern yourself with the functional elements of things.
-You are willing to experiment to find things that work the most efficiently.
-Getting stuck in certain habits is boring to you—you'd rather find new experiences.
-Accordingly, experiences are more important to you than objects—you'd rather spend your money and energy on events and adventures than on material things.
-You like to contemplate a lot of options before making a decision, and you're willing and able to consider a lot of different angles to problems.
-You're open to suggestions, and often rely on others to assess the merit of those suggestions.
-You have an ability to see the big picture—not just how things are, but how they could be—in a variety of situations.
-Your independent streak allows you to make decisions efficiently and to trust your instincts
-You prefer to have time to plan for things, feeling better with a schedule than with keeping plans up in the air until the last minute.
-You do your own thing when it comes to clothing, guided more by practical concerns than by other people's notions of style.
-Generally, you believe that you control your life, and that external forces only play a limited role in determining what happens to you.

If you want to be different:
-Have faith that your imagination and practicality will complement each other, and lead to good decisions on your part.
-Take the initiative in seeking things out—don't wait for them to come to you.

how you relate to others:
you are faithful

-Your trust in others, respect for tradition, and caring nature make you FAITHFUL.
-Maintaining a few intimate relationships is more important to you than knowing a lot of people, and you share a lot with your close friends.
-Those who have managed to get close to you value your camaraderie, and they know that they can trust you with anything; you're a good listener.
-While you can usually see several sides of an argument, you often have a strong opinion as to which side is correct—the order of things is usually clear to you.
-Your perspective on the world is based on careful observation, and you know a lot about how people feel in—and react to—many situations.
-Your exploration of others' feelings has led you to believe that although people generally act appropriately, having clear social rules is very important to a functional society.
-Time alone for reflection is important to you—you are introspective and aware of your own feelings.
-Faithful is as faithful does—you expect those with whom you are close to be loyal to you, and you take betrayal of your trust very seriously.

If you want to be different:
-Some of the alternate perspectives that you understand may have more value than you give them credit for—keep in mind that right and wrong aren't always so clear-cut.
-While you are able to reap the benefits of your time alone, and may see interacting with a lot of people as more tiring than exciting, remember that there is a lot to be learned from experiencing things and not just reflecting on them.

ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG!!! FREAKING TRUE TOO!!!!!!

Tagged on Facebook by Yuhui

2009-03-21T21:18:00.003+08:00

This is a little interesting test. The answers you generate seem quite accurate, but rather, it's an interesting mix of cold readings and random possible facts. Do give it a shot and see how it goes.
1. Open this website : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
2. Take the Personality Quiz
3. Copy Paste the result to Facebook
4. Tag your friends including me
5. Do comment if you think this is true about me too

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG!!!

This is so true! Very true! To a certain extent.

Tagged on Facebook by Cecilia

2009-03-21T20:58:00.003+08:00

TAG 10 PEOPLE :D

TEN ARE YOUs
1. Are you single - OBVIOUSLY!
2. Are you happy - Hm....
3. Are you bored - Not really
4. Are you white - NOPE
5. Are you Italian - NEVER
6. Are you intelligent - YEAH!
7. Are you honest - VERY!!! I can't lie, therefore I don't.
8. Are you nice - I think so.
9. Are you Irish - Nope
10. Are you Asian - DUH!

TEN FACTS
1. Full Name - Png Hui Ying Christina
2. Nicknames - cphy
3. Birth place - Singapore
4. Hair color - Slightly bleached black
5. Natural hair style - Long, straight, curled
6. Best Friend - Hm...
7. Birthday - 21st April 1991
8. Mood - HMMMMM
9. Favourite colour - COLOURS!
10. One place you'd like to visit - The whole wide world!

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love - Too young to love
2. Do you believe in love at first sight - Too young to love
3. Do you currently have a crush? - At least I don't think so
4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally - HAHA Hm....
5. Have you ever broken someone's heart - HAHAHAHAHAHA Who?
6. Have you ever had your heart broken - Eh... NOPE
7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them - There was this guy....
8. Are you afraid of commitment - Not really.
9. Who was the last person you hugged - IDK!
10. Who was the last person you said I love you to? - I don't.

TEN THIS OR THAT
1. Love or lust? - Love
2. Hard liquor or beer - Hard liquor
3. Cats or dogs - Dogs
4. A few best friends or many regular friends - Hm........
5. Creamy or Crunchy - Depends.
6. Pencil or Pen - Pen.
7. Wild night out or romantic night in - Romantic night in
8. Money or Happiness - HAPPINESS!!!!
9. Night or day - Night.
10. IM or phone - Phone

TEN HAVE YOU EVERs
1. Been caught sneaking out - I don't.
2. Seen a polar bear - Guess so.
3. Done something you regret - Yes, sadly...
4. Bungee jumped - NEVER EVER EVER in my life!
5. Eaten food that fell on the floor - Haha yes.
6. Finished an entire jaw breaker - Not that tough.
7. Been caught naked - Surprisingly, yes.
8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back - Haha, if I even have one to start with.
9. Cried because you lost a pet - Devastated when my dog died. Utterly DEVASTATED!
10. Wanted to disappear - If I can even appear visible to other..

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes - BOTH!!!
2. Light or dark hair - Natural colour.
3. Hugs or kisses - Hugs! I agree with Cecilia that kisses are gross.
4. Shorter or taller - Obviously taller!
5. Intelligence or attraction - The unsurpassable amount of knowledge and intelligence attracts me.
6. Hot Topic or Hollister - What is hollister?
7. Funny or serious - Funny enough to get serious with and serious enough to be funny.
8. Older or Younger - Love does not discriminate.
9. Outgoing or quiet - Depends....
10. Sweet or Bad - SWEET!

TEN HAVE YOUs
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Hell yea...
2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour - Many times!
3. Ever tried walking on your hands - For a step, yes.
4. Ever been to a rock concert - Wanted to.
5. Ever been on a cheerleading team - Too fat to.
6. Ever been on a dance team - Can't dance!!!!
7. Ever been on a sports team - Taekwondo is a sport but there is no team.
8. Ever been in a drama play/production - WANTED BADLY TO!!!!
9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley? - If only...
10. Ever been in a rap video? - You think?

NINE... LASTS
1. Last phone call you made - Called Xb for Yuhan.
2. Last person you hugged - I really don't know.
3. Last person you hung out with - Junzhan, he drove me home.
4. Last time you worked - This is tough, I don't really like to work, rather do things for free.
5. Last person you tackled - Can't remember, it was really chaotic pulling everyone up the stage.
6. Last person you IM'd - HUH?
7. Last person you texted - Si Ying.
8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with - Myself.
9. Last person/thing you missed - A lot of things...

Tagged on Facebook by Qimin and Amalina

2009-03-17T21:04:00.002+08:00

Rules:
It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag ten people.
Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real...nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What is your name : Christina

2. A four Letter Word : Cafe

3. A boy's Name : Cade

4. A girl's Name : Crystal

5. An occupation : Cleaner! ...

6. A color : Chartreuse

7. Something you'll wear : Coat

9. A food : Chocolate! =]

10. Something found in the bathroom : Cistern

11. A place : Caribbean

12. A reason for being late : Car accident

13. Something you'd shout : Catch that thief!

14. A movie title : Coming soon

15. Something you drink : Cider

16. A musical group : Click Five

17. An animal : Calf

18. A street name : Clemenceau Road

19. A type of car : Corolla

20. The title of a song : Capri by Colbie Caillat

Coming Soon

2009-03-15T23:28:00.002+08:00

"Coming Soon" is the BEST horror film EVER!!!!

Today was simple.
1. Woke up early in the morning to send my brother off, to Vietnam for school's volleyball trip, at Changi Airport.
2. Met Derek and went to NUS open house until 6pm.
3. Went to Queensway shopping centre to watch him eat (again!)
4. Watched the beloved horror film in Shaw.
5. Shopped for books at Borders (and finally used my gift card!)
6. Walked home (AGAIN)

Walking home reminds be of many things, but shall refrain from pondering since time can't undo its own doings. This is a moment of self-renewing - the walking (LOVE long walks)

camaraderie

2009-03-14T22:48:00.002+08:00

今天我淋着雨走回家
雨，把我叫醒了。

When a friend told me "Never trust a friend whom you've known not longer than 12 years". I was shocked, I must say, when I heard that. I never how much this piece of advice meant until...

With all due respect to optimism and the courage to dream, reality is crucial. Let me just shut down and reboot and reinstall and defragment and come out anew, refreshed and ready to start pumping again.

I am thankful for friends, the very few I've picked up along the way. The very few that I met today, and the many I will meet up with once again. Although I don't know, and lack the ability to differentiate between, the ersatz and the artless, I am thankful most of all for my guilelessness.

What makes you different, makes you beautiful.

No one can should make you feel inferior without your permission.

-The Princess Diaries

Let us all be refreshed and renewed and TXY YX 2009 FTW!!

As I blog hop

2009-03-14T21:42:00.002+08:00

The rules:
Bold the statements that are true to you
Italicize the statements that you WISH are true
Leave the Fibs alone

I miss somebody right now. [Hm.. finding somebody to miss since missing my dogs don't count]
I don't watch TV these days. [IF ONLY!]
I own lots of books. [Which I always fail to finish reading, but I LOVE reading]
I wear glasses or contact lenses. [If only I have perfect eyesight like...]
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy. [Well, I suck at lying]
I curse sometimes. [Yea! Like SHIT MAN!]
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. [I guess so...]
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm totally smart. [TOTALLY!]
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now. [BROKE]
I love sushi. [I DO I DO!]
I talk really, really fast. [Haha I know who does]
I have long hair. [I think it is long]
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling. [I have 2!]
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. [It'd be so cool to be able to do that!]
I like the way I look. [I THINK I don't]
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent. [WHAT?]
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have. [HIGH!!!]
I have a lot of friends. [TXY RULES SHIT]
I am currently single. [happily...]
I have pecked someone of the same sex. [truth or dare/ family]
I enjoy talking on the phone. [Depends, sometimes I am afraid of the phone]
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop. [If only... then I'll be more like a girl]
I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.
I'm a pretty good dancer. [WORST dancer ever!]
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone. [KS20]
I believe in God. [Amen]
I watch MTV on a daily basis. [Music scene is interesting]
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before. [Surprise surprise!]
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future. [2 kids! TWINS :)]
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn. [Learning never ends]
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex. [Depends]
I have tried alcohol before. [Parents let me drink from their cup]
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends. [Yea man!]
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. [CANDY!]
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I have dated a close friends's ex.
I am happy at this moment! [:)]
I'm obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time. [If only]
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. [Nice to be different]
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now. [Am I?]
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can. [If the floor is clean]
I have jumped off a bridge. [So brave, so cool]
I love sea turtles. [I love animals]
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. [YUP! Loads]
I'm proficient in a musical instrument. [If only...]
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies. [I just love watching movies!]
I think water rules. [ehh...]
I went college out of state.
I like sausage.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes. [But I don't know why I do that]
I can't whistle. [I wish I can]
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither. [Flex-i-ble]
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in. [I call it the diary, no one is to read!]
I can't stick to a diet. [Never had]
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. [If I did, if I did]
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time. [But I don't do that]
I have jazz in my blood. [LOVE jazz]
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at least one person that I work with. [Humans aren't perfect]
I am a caffeine junkie.
I know what cosplaying is. [But I don't do that, although it is cool]
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better. [FUN!]
I'm an artist. [Where art thou talents?]
I only clean my room when necessary. [My room is messy like crazy]
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy. [:)]
I am an adrenaline junkie. [WHOO-HOO!!]

Today...

2009-03-13T23:43:00.003+08:00

ECONS WAS BLOODY EASY! BUT I didn't study.... OMG OMG OMG! Mr Peh actually gave us so many tips during tutorials!!! I shouldn't have slept in class.

Today was a short day that seemed long.

Morals of today's story:
1. JZ is a road痴
2. FCY cannot be judged by the cover

missing WHO!?

2009-03-12T23:36:00.002+08:00

As I wish upon the star, I ask for understanding.
On my part of the world and the world's.

TODAY...
I woke up lying on my bed. This is nothing surprising, but I clearly remembered I fell asleep on the floor (I was pretending to be asleep because I thought my mom came in to check on me, it turned out to be my brother. The floor felt so nice, I just slept)

H2 PAPERS...
were as expected. Having not studied for Maths (almost not at all) I would thank God so much if I can get an S. It isn't passing, but atleast I get some rank points. It was a depressing paper for most J2s. Hopefully the will moderate (Mrs Lim makes it sound as if it is gonna happen).
Chemistry has rather easy until I hit the later part of the MCQs (Ionic equilibria!!) I didn't touch that topic at all and it just has to come out. While I was doing structured, everything seemed pleasant (except Ionic equilibria questions) until I saw the ORGANIC. Everything I studied for Organic Chemistry DID NOT appear.

British Council...
is out of my appointment list! SO GLAD! Useless tuition GONE GONE GONE! Thanks so school and Alvin Toh =]

Evening...
was spent reading the papers (after so long) and watching History channel. Channel 9 (I think) is so addictive and super informative and very interesting. I got to know more about the Czars of Russia and I am very very impressed with Catherine II, The Great. She is so intelligent and so impressive and very capable but, her personal life is a little screwed (but who cares anyway!) There was also something shown about basements. ZOMG! I am so gonna have a basement when I build my own house!

The whole time something was on my mind, I have no idea what is, but it is bothering me. A LOT.

CAR.SIT.HE DRIVES.YEAH!

2009-03-11T22:05:00.002+08:00

The Veronicas ROCKS!

WANHUI COMM PERFORMANCE PRAC AT BG TODAY! My performance changed from singing to dancing and the worst part is, WE HAVE TO SQUAT SO MANY TIMES. So sorry for the numerous CAPs but I am not exactly in the right frame of mind now (all the mugging is turning my brain to MASH).

HAPPY 17th KELVIN!! I LOVED PEI XUAN's CAKE! Thanks for having your birthday today, so I can have very delicious desert! LOVE cakes to bits =]

OMG OMG OMG OMG! Got fetch home today! TJ and I managed to convince JZ to fetch us to the nearest MRT. Then, I managed to convince him to fetch me to the nearest bus stop. THEN! I managed to convince him to fetch me home!!!! =] JZ purposely dropped me off a few metres away from home (to not let my parents suspect anything, which was totally unnecessary)

On the way home, we talked a lot. I also realised JZ took the LONG way back. Through the whole pep talk by TJ and JZ, I realised I am never gonna get married (or even attached) with my idealistic manner of getting a boyfriend. I can't believe they actually told me to flirt back!! OMG! That is so damn wrong. Sending wrong signals is so so so mean and unfair.

I was totally cite to have a second experience in a friend's car. BUT, JZ's car is infested with ants (surprisingly it was only the exterior). I was screaming while getting in and out of the car. Nice car I must say, although it wasn't Lexus, it was still cosy and nice! His car is really spacious (but the cushions and other stuffs in the car makes it damn cram).

Totally addicted to the song I'm listening to now. I shall have a shot at singing this during YX 2009! I AM HAVING MY OWN 签场会!!! Very stupid because it is fake, but who cares. As long as I don't freak out on stage (again!) and sing well!! and... You leave me speechless <3

I am so dead for BT1 tomorrow. Mugged Chem damn hard. Neglected Maths. Maths is the 1st paper. LRY just pawned me at technology possession. Go eat shit!

And you ask yourself why you mentioned...

Heavily broken, the Veronicas

2009-03-08T00:56:00.002+08:00

I NEVER post lyrics, let this be an exception.

I am waiting for that day to come.
Although I know life is unfair,
such unhappiness would soon be
over.

Being hopeful and holding onto
what I hope to believe in
isn't exactly helping.
When will this unwanted repetition end?

Heavily broken, the glue can mend.
What else can be done?
(What about the cracks?)

I can't give up trying,
can I?
Screaming out would do some good,
but how does it help the fighting spirit?

I am chocking in the situation I created,
the mess I didn't know I created.
What can I say?
What else can I do?

Drowning and trying
to get some fresh air in such a time is tough.
Sighing in the presence of such obliviousness

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
(What can I do)
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken

I'm heavily broken
And I don't know what to do
Can't you see that I'm choking
And I can't even move
When there's nothing left to say
What can you do
I'm heavily broken

Tagged on Facebook by Qimin

2009-03-07T00:36:00.002+08:00

TEN WHATS:
1. What was the first thing you thought about when you woke up?
Damn it, SCHOOL! But hooray! FRIDAY!!!

2. What did you do last night?
Can't remember, oh ya! Reached home really late due to tuition.

3. What is the most important part of your life right now?
Finding the way to lead my life

4. What would you rather be doing right now?
STUDYING! or sleeping

5. What did you last cry over?
I didn't cry (tearing doesn't count!) and I'm not telling, like Qimin.

6. What always makes you feel better when you're upset?
A friend and my dogs.

7. What are your plans tomorrow?
Whole day in SPH! Soaking in the goodness of friends and hectic beauty.

8. What are you doing now besides typing this note?
I am being so freaking nervous because I am gonna sing online. The fear of stage presence even went online! WTH!

9. What are you worried about?
If I can ever get into Oxford and if I'd ever find true love.

10. What are you looking forward to most in next week?
The day after exams! Board games on friday! =]

NINE HAVE-YOU-EVERS:

1. Have you ever liked someone with a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Liked one person in my life and yes he has a girlfriend now.

2. Have you ever had your heart broken?
YES! A million times whenever I drop my new phone or knock my laptop into something or accidentally drop my dog =[

3. Have you ever played on a sports team?:
Hm.... nope! Not really, unless leisure counts.

4. Have you ever been out of the country?
Like DUH!

6. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
I really don't know. Being me, I won't know even if I had been.

7. Have you ever had the cops called on you?
Haha that would be so cool!

8. Have you ever dated someone younger then you?
Haha! Never been on a date! I know that is so loser!

9. Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
When I was a kid, yes. Now, hard.

EIGHT WHOS:
1. Who was the last person you saw?
My sister.

2. Who was the last person you hugged?
Elizabeth

3. Who was the last person you called?
Some prospective TXY who refused to pick up the phone.

4. Who was the last person to call you?
Some prospective TXY who decided it is wise to call back after one week PLUS.

5. Who was your first crush?
OMG I have to stress this again. Like only ONE guy in my life and I am NOT telling!

6. Who was the last person to text message you?:
Wenjing, declaring her new number.

7.Who is the last person you texted?
Xiao bin about Bohan's interview.

8. Who did you last yell at?:
Hm... I don't know. I would really wanna yell at people (other than my siblings!) I remembered! I scolded my sister for scratching me!

SEVEN WHENS:
1. When did you last shower?
Last night.

2. When did you last see your mom?
In the evening before she went on cruise with dad and grandparents.

3. When was your last hug?
TODAY! =] When Elizabeth tricked me about her Chinese A's results (which she didn't have to take)

4. When did you last dress up?
Erm, CNY!

5. When was the last time you cried?
IDK!

6. When did you last go to the movie theatre?
Last week when we were supposed to watch "The Curious Case of Benjamin Button" instead we watched "Pink Panther"

7. When were you born?
21/04/1991

SIX WHERES:
1. Where do(es) your best friend(s) live?
Singapore and Aussie

2. Where did you last go?
The Kitchen. I am in the living room now.

3. Where did you last hang out?
Hang out, SPH.

4. Where do you go to school?
SAJC

5. Where is your favorite place to be?
Somewhere out there.

6. Where did you sleep last night?
My room....

FIVE DO/DOES:
1. Do you like someone right now?
Nope! =]

2. Do they like you too?
Don't like no one.

3. Do you ever wish you were someone else?
Hm... maybe.

4. Do you know the muffin man?
Who's that?

5. Does the future scare you?
Not really... It makes me dream =]

FOUR WHYS:
1. Why are you best friends with your best friends?:
Because they are nice and real (non-hypocritical people) and they love me the way I am! =]

2. Why did you get a Facebook?
Can't remember.

3. Why did your parents give you the name you have?:
I have no idea.

4. Why are you doing this survey?:
I have no idea too! Just felt like it =]

THREE IFS:
1. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?:
To read minds!

2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?:
I am still considering, time travel is a tricky thing.

3. If you were stranded on a desert island and could bring one thing what would it be?:
My dogs!

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVERS:
1. Would you ever be friends with someone again, who you promised yourself you never would be because they were mean to you?:
I would have never thought of not befriending a friend. But, I guess I still would be friends with him/her again. I think.

2. Would you ever shave your head to save the person you love?:
Yup!

ONE:
1. Name a dream you wish to fulfill:
To be in love =]

A levels

2009-03-06T20:44:00.005+08:00

I have to live in the moment.
Not ponder about the past.
Not dream about the future.

I saw the president of the 30th student council turning red and tears rolled out of her eyes after Miss Huang hugged her. It looked more like tears of sadness. That, somehow, made me reconsider many things.

I heard Zachary saying "imagine if your vice-pres getting better results than you and you are the president of student council". That was like the second punch that sent me falling to the ground in a boxing match.

The third trauma came when I called people.

In a CCA where foreign talents reign supreme, I fear for myself.
I really want to go Oxford! Not because it is a prestigious school, but because it offers Experimental Psychology which NUS doesn't offer.

Pig!

2009-03-01T15:54:00.003+08:00

Woke up damn early today! There was some buddhist ritual happening at home. It was so shit because I can't go for Outdoor Games trial! So I did I spend the morning and afternoon? Watching TV and being in the ritual. Then my sis said "I thought you Christian cannot do this" It was so agonising to go through this. It is a struggle between obeying my parents and having one god.

By the time it ended, Outdoor games trial ended! Didn't go out in the end. Sis introduced me to meetoto.com where you can sing online and level up. People vote. The more votes, the more money you get. The highest I've got is 70+ votes, the lowest 20+. It would be really addictive if there were better singers around there and meetoto.com crashes my Safari!!

Gota start calling people! YX YX, TXY YX! It is raining cats and dogs! THUNDERSTORM!

As Heros say:
There is nothing wrong with being a 17 year-old girl for a while
But I'm 18!

Stress

2009-03-01T01:18:00.002+08:00

When the sky falls, would hercules kindly appear and put it back in place?
When my world crashes, can someone be nice enough to piece them back together?

Long long day at SPH, video discussion, indoor games trial, meeting, dance prac. What ever happened to studying?! I really need to study. Like REALLY! But, what would happen after orientation? There is still NYEC, Pei Xun Ying, TXY CIP and most importantly (and not forgetting) MY 18TH BIRTHDAY! So exhausted. Really tired. Tired of trying to make things perfect when perfection in its entity does not exist at all. Sometimes I feel like a S.I.L., P.O.S. We learn from our past mistakes, world leaders learn from the country' history. What can you learn from if, mistakes are present and the past wasn't as flawed? All the best Barrack Obama.

So, today there wasn't Tianying Xiaban and HJ broke her LEG!! XM and Edna was like the ultimate dance pair! OMG OMG OMG XM can sway his hips so hard, the movement waves he causes can create the 2nd Tsunami! (Hyperbole) Lydia and Xb was best! (Sarcasm) Xb made be laugh so hard, people would mistaken me for a patient at IMH. It may not be his moves, but it is definitely his face! HOW CAN HE DANCE WITH SUCH A STRAIGHT FACE!!!!

Ended dance prac at like 19 15hrs, started at around 15 30hrs. Almost 4hrs for a dance!! I left, feeling reduced (since oxidised is adding on more oxygen!) 3 slackers, namely Yelin, Yuhan and I decided to scoot off right after dance prac. Then I was complaining how much I don't want to go home because there isn't anyone to go home with. Normally there is JZ (Jace) and I can beg beg beg and beg him to go home with me. So Yelin said there is Xb. I was like, I can beg JZ cause I know him but Xb and I don't know each other well enough for me to beg him shamelessly to go home with me. (Let's count the numerous times I managed to beg JZ and worked)

Magically, Xb appeared at Comma room after a while! We were supposed to leave, then Xb suggested Daidi. =.= Super dots. Played 3 rounds. Didn't lose one, won one, lost one and I was branded asshole!! So much for suaning Xb (he lost in the FIRST round). Yelin went to update blog, like finally! So I said, Yuhan's and Xb's blogs are good for music! However, Xb only has 3 songs!!

So, went home with Xb since we live so damn near each other. Gosh, back then in 320, he lived at 314! Now he lives near swimming complex and I moved further up! The journey home I was mostly bugging him to tell me who 'she' is. He got the "you are so curious" correct. OMG I would never believe Xb is SHY! Hm.. on hind sight, maybe. We talked a lot, I talked more. I keep begging him to tell me things and he said I give him 'THE FACE'. Okay, Xb has that Keik Sai face and always look like he is going to beat you up haha but he is SO much different from how he looks (or his stale expression rather). To think I was actually once afraid of talking to him! CLEMENTI CLEMENTI CLEMENTI WE GOTA MAKE EAT OTHER STUDY, I gota make MYSELF study.

Being the slow me, I always and only start thinking about what I talked with my friends and the issues surrounding it on my way home. Loads of day dreaming of the PERFECT ending to life. However, once you weight your priorities of the PRESENT, the future is more idealistic, the future doesn't co-inside with the NOW.

When you screw, you lose. and become loose

Tagged on Facebook by Xinyue

2009-02-24T22:14:00.002+08:00

How old are you going to be when you get married?
Put an X in every box that applies to you.
Add up all the Xes and title subject with the sum as "My marriage age is__"

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own more than one credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car
[ ] You do your own laundry
I can, but I don't.
[ ] You vote every election
[x] You can cook for yourself
[x] You think politics are exciting
[ ] You balance your own checkbook
[ ] Your parents have better things to say than your friends
I'll wait for that day to come.
Total: 4

[ ] You show up for school/college/work every day early.

Early everyday? No. Early recently? YES!
[ ] You always carry a pen in your pocket/purse
[x] You've never gotten a detention
[x] You have never smoked a cigarette
EW!
[x] You have never gotten completely trashed
doubt it.
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday at least once
How I wished I had, I wonder how it'd feel. But my birthday is too important to me for me to forget.
[x] You like to take walks by yourself
Sometimes, it is a personal quiet time. But, it is sweeter having long walks with others.
[x] You've watched talk shows.
[x] You know what 'credibility' means without looking it up
[ ] You drink coffee[caffiine] at least once a week.

Hate coffee.
Total: 10

[x] You know how to do the dishes.
BETTER THAN MY LOUSY MAID!
[x] You can count to 10 in another language.
Yea, mandrain.
[x] When you say you're going to do something you do it.
I would, but it depends how fast.
[x] My parents trust me

I think.
[ ] You can mow the lawn

No lawn to mow, not counted.
[x]You can make adults laugh without being stupid
I can, but it is rare.
[ ] You remember to water the plants
[x] You study when you have to
The catch: "HAVE TO"
[x] You pay attention at school/college
I do. But is it all the time? It depends...
[ ] You remember to feed your pets

Not applicable, I don't feed them.
Total: 17

[x] You can spell 'experience' without looking it up.
I suck at spelling, but this is idiot proof.
[ ] You work out on a regular basis.
[x] You clean up your own mess
And my dog's too.
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[ ] You have gained weight since middle/high school
Surprising? I have always been so fat!
[ ] The first thing you do when you wake up is get caffeine
[ ] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[ ] You can type quickly
It really depends.
Total: 19

[ ] You have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour
[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party

OMG! Tupperware party?!?!?!
[ ] You have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[x] Most of all your friends are older than you are
[ ] You can say no to staying out all night

I LOVE to!
[x] You use the internet every day
[ ] Your wardrobe hasn't changed in a while
[ ] You can read a book and actually finish it
Total: 21

Freaking HELL! This is so... NOT accurate! My gosh! I am 17!!! That is in 4 years. 4 years to get someone who is willing to marry me, dream on!! My dear Xinyue, OMG I am getting married before you!!

biopsies

2009-02-23T21:17:00.002+08:00

biopsy |ˈbīˌäpsē|
noun ( pl. -sies)
an examination of tissue removed from a living body to discover the presence, cause, or extent of a disease.

This was what my sister went through today morning, 9-1. The doc didn't spot a significant abnormality in the cells, thus, the something something tube isn't inserted. The more detailed results would be out on Friday.

Yikai and Aunty Katherine came to visit, so we (mom, sis, bro, me) were able to hitch a ride home. Sis puked really badly in the car, thanks so the anesthesia.

As for my relentless tummy ache, back to the hospital after BT1.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-02-22T21:12:00.006+08:00

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All I need is a long long long call

Tagged on Facebook by Jing Xiang

2009-02-22T17:23:00.002+08:00

You are required to answer ALL the following questions.
Tag 16 people and repost it with the title:
I've done --- out of the 139 stupid things.

Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
NEVER!
( ) Smoked A Cigar
Isn't it the same?
(X) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
Erm, my mom and sis and grandma and friends.
(X) Drank Alcohol
Every time when I'm out with my parents. How ironic.
Points: 2

Level 2
( ) Are / Been In Love
Too young to love.
( ) Been Dumped
Never had been in one to be dumped.
(X) Shoplifted
When I was a kid, wow I was rebellious.
( ) Been Fired
Never worked.
( ) Been In A Fist Fight
Don't really fight.
Points: 3

Level 4
( ) Had A Crush On An Older Person
Hm...?
(X) Skipped School
Technically I either had an mc or a parent's letter, so it isn't considered.
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
WOW!
( ) Seen Someone / Something Die
Seen dead stuff though.
Points: 4

Level 5
(X) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
HMM...
( ) Been To Paris
How I wish...
( ) Been To Spain
I've been there.
(X) Been On A Plane
Hell yes.
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking
Not yet, don't see that happening anytime in the near future.
Points: 6

Level 6
(X) Eaten Sushi
LOVE!
( ) Been Snowboarding
Nope, but I've Skied.
( ) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
This is stupid.
( ) Been in a Mosh Pit
Never moshed.
Points: 7

Level 7
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
Never been in one to be abused, unless being hit badly by my parents when I was a kid is considered.
(X) Taken Pain Killers
Who don't. I hate them though, it adds onto the pain ironically.
( ) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
Said. Too young to love.
( ) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
This would be nice.
(X) Made A Snow Angel
This was nice.
Points: 9

Level 8
( ) Had A Tea Party
Wish I even tea.
(X) Flown A Kite
Yea, but I sucked at it.
(X) Built A Sand Castle
It was fun.
( ) Gone mudding
Don't know what's that.
(X) Played Dress Up
Numerous when I was young.
Points: 11

Level 9
( ) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
How would that feel?
( ) Gone Sledging
Maybe.. if I can get to Alaska.
(X) Cheated While Playing A Game
The game is called cheat.
( ) Been Lonely
This is sad.
(X) Fallen Asleep At Work / School
Too many a times to count.
Points: 13

Level 10
(X) Watched The Sun Set
The beauty of nature!
( ) Felt An Earthquake
In Singapore? It is tough.
( ) Killed A Snake
That would have been brave.
Points: 14

Level 11
(X) Been Tickled
By my sister, at the sole.
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
That would be traumatic.
(X) Been cheated
I guess.
(X) Been Misunderstood
YES!
Points: 17

Level 12
(X) Won A Contest
Only ONCE!
( ) Been Suspended From School
I'm a good kid.
( ) Had Detention
Nuff said.
( ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident
Don't drive.
Points: 18

Level 13
( ) Had / Have Braces
Wish I had!
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
This would be the dream.
( ) Danced in the moonlight
How I wished...
Points: 18

Level 14
( ) Hated The Way You Look
Hmm?
( ) Witnessed A Crime
Doubt so.
( ) Pole Danced
That wouldn't be me.
( ) Questioned Your Heart
HAHA! That would never happen.
( ) Been obsessed with post-it-notes
???That's weird.
Points: 18

Level 15
( ) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
That would've felt nice.
(X) Been Lost
DEFINITELY!!
( ) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
Which is that?
( ) Swam In The Ocean
You can do that?
(X) Felt Like You Were Dying
Yeah man! I just got slightly revived.
Points: 20

Level 16
(X) Cried Yourself To Sleep
=]
(X) Played Cops And Robbers
That was how I lost my 2 front teeth.
( ) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
How I missed those days.
(X) Sang Karaoke
Of course!
( ) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins
That would have been hilarious.
Points: 23

Level 17
( ) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
If I told myself I wouldn't, I wouldn't right?
( ) Made a Prank Phone Call
Not really, heard the conversation though.
(X) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
The most vivid memory was Soya Bean Milk when I was K2.
( ) Kissed In The Rain
That would've been magical!
Points: 24

Level 18
( ) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
Never knew how to, or I needed to.
( ) Watched The Sun Set/ sun rise With Someone You Care/Cared About
Aw...
(X) Blown Bubbles
This is called having some sort of childhood.
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere
Don't know how to.
Points: 25

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
Almost! Dang, I should have.
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
That is a must-try.
(X) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
At ECP!
( ) Had A Wish Come True
Wish I had.
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey
OMG!
Points: 26

Level 22
( ) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube
Almost!
( ) Kissed A Fish
Oh no!
( ) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
Many times, that of my brother's
(X) Sat On A Roof Top
I think I sat on my roof before
Points: 27

Level 23
(X) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
All the time! =]
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
Can't do Cartwheels!! =[
(X) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
It was the day before O's or its prelims even!
( ) Recently stayed up for a while talking to someone you care about
Hope I had.
Points: 29

Level 24
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
Fresh!
( ) Climbed A Tree
Watched my brother climb one before though.
( ) Had/Been In A Tree House.
Would want one.
( ) Been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone
NEVER! I love horror!
Points: 29

Level 25
( ) Believed In Ghosts
Almost.
( ) Have had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
WOW!
( ) Gone Streaking
But I know my brother did.
( ) Visited Jail
That would be nice.
Points: 29

Level 26
(X) Played Chicken
In the game to grow from an egg to SUPER CHICKEN! But I still remained an egg at the end of the game.=[
( ) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
It would be horrible and fun. Pushed someone in though.
( ) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
HARD! VERY VERY VERY VERYYYY HARD!
( ) Broken A Bone
OUCH!
(X) Been Easily Amused
You think?
Points: 31

Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
I want to go fishing!
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
O.o

( ) Caught A Butterfly
But I've caught many grasshoppers before.
() Laughed So Hard You Cried
I would like to see the max of my laughter.
( ) Cried So Hard You Laughed
Wow... that's hysterical
Points: 31

Level 28
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone
I wouldn't dared.
( ) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
They wouldn't dared.
(X) Cheated On A Test
Spelling test with my good friend in tuition whom we lost contact!
(X) Forgotten Someone's Name
Many times!
(X) French Braided Someones Hair
This is sad, but that is why those girls actually talk to me.
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
Cool!
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House
Hm...
( )Tried to hurt yourself
This would be crazy.
Points: 34

Level 29
( ) Rode A Roller Coaster
I cry the first time I sat a Ferris Wheel, so you think?
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
I WANT TO DO THAT!
(X) Had A Cavity
Loads, wanna see?
(X) Black-Mailed Someone
My siblings
(X) Been Black Mailed
By my siblings
Points: 37

Level 31
(X) Been Used
... Many times.
(X) Fell Going Up The Stairs
HAHA!
( ) Licked A Cat
The only cat I know is the Ng's and we aren't so close.
(X) Bitten Someone
HAHA! YES siblings...
(X) Licked Someone
=] siblings too!
Points: 41

Level 32
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
Guns are illegal in Singapore and I am triad-free.
( ) Had sex in the rain
This is gross.
( ) Flattened someones tires
This is mean.
( ) Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
No car, can't drive.
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas
^^^
Points: 41

Level 33
( ) Had Phone sex
OMG! This is so wrong!
( ) Burped in a library
Seldom go there now.
(X) Punched someone in the gut
Siblings fight.
( ) Punched someone in the face
Only slapped.
( ) Punched someone in the groin
( ) Kicked someone in the groin
Had almost done that to my brother ages ago.
Total Points: 42

Life

2009-02-21T23:12:00.002+08:00

Just then you realised no one knows you
And then you realised you can't say anything to anyone

Sweet dreams tonight?

2009-02-18T20:59:00.002+08:00

I can't believe how early I am sleeping the past few days. It first started out with 10pm, the normal time I have to sleep on school days. Then I slept at 9.30pm on Monday, perhaps it was the effect of the medicine. THEN, I slept at 9pm on Tuesday! Oh gosh. But today, I'll be sleeping at ... ... Back to the hectic days.

I went to the doctor's

2009-02-17T11:46:00.003+08:00

I slept at 9.30pm yesterday, the earliest of all times! I was (am) on medication and it makes me drowsy.
I woke up automatically at 6.06am today, the earliest of this year! I woke up with a throbbing headache, a sign that I am sleeping too much. I was coughing so badly my legs turned jelly! Went back to sleep after replying to the 2 Dereks and Stella.
I am supposed to be spending my medical leave from school doing homework and catching up. But here I am blogging, face booking and helping my brother do his homework.
I love my medicine so much! Because they are supposed to make me feel better. Instead, I cannot breathe properly and now my hands are jelly. Aren't you just amazed at this irony?
I need to go OUT to study. Or have someone study with me! Seriously, I am lacking in self-discipline.

Study buddies check
1. Joy Kwan Ai Ting (@JJC or my house)
2. Tang Jie (@NYJC or SPH?)
3. I think I am stuck at 2. Oh brother... I need at least 3 choices right?

Get Well Soon! =]

Oh don't I just love this fever!

sick AGAIN...

2009-02-16T15:09:00.003+08:00

When I knew I was sick, I was SUPER HAPPY! That means I don't have to go to school and stay home to do my homework which I was lagging behind by A LOT. Then... (in no proper order, I lost the ability to arrange things in order now)

The number of USED tissues piled up
I drank more water then I ever had for the past week
Felt like puking out water after drinking them
Had stomachache (how is this related?)
Tonsils are so swollen it is chocking me
Throat, eyes and nose feel as if it needs LOADS of scratchings
Skipped lunch (no appetite)
Brain got turned into mash
Constantly feel like sleeping
Don't feel like talking (it is hard!)
Feel so damn weak!
I need to be taken care of

Is feeling feverishly cold

Breaking out in loads of cold sweat

Now I feel like eating cake, pastry, desert or something. Too bad there is none at home and I don't know where to get it. How I hope there there is some kind soul out there reading this who is nice enough to send it over. I will be eternally grateful and I can be your slave after recovering (I am this desperate for something nice to eat). Haiz......
I think I need to go see the doctor too.

Happy Valentine's Day!I

2009-02-15T22:28:00.001+08:00

I realised all the previous posts are very short (except the tag game), so this post shall be very, very long! I shall try.

Pre Pre Pre Pre PREEEEE Vday
The day that my sister lugged me from the Ng's to Eastpoint to buy her crush (Joshua Ting) a gift. I was so shocked that she actually confessed to him! (After of course that guy knew about it- she fessed up) I was amazed by the array of gifts, never had I went out around the Vday period. Photo quality is rather inferior because it is taken from my phone*

Attention is on that card. It is like aww...

I saw this really cute thing. Very cute!

HAHA this is the ring box for those who are either very cheap-skate or are creative.

I think this is super true. Very very very true. The mind is strong but the flesh is weak.

My soulmate. This is just sweet!

A strong juxtaposition, this is purely cliche.

Oh this was hilarious! I just happened to catch this. Do you know what she was doing? Let me tell you, this is the ingenious way of testing out pens- get a notebook from Popular and a pen from Popular and test the pen on that notebook.

Yea man! Friendships are very important.

My sister showed me this card. Hilarious!

The one on the left is funny, the one on the right is sweet.

Hm....

This is super cute.

As a reward (and after much pestering), I got my sister to buy me this.

Pre-Vday
School was, as per normal. During the short 30 minutes break, I went around school like a lunatic (not that there was any difference) to give out the new IOTA interactive! Gosh it was tough! But thank god, that break has many people I know being in the canteen. THANKS ELIZABETH LIM! For that heartwarming 2 cookies. Gifts are but just formality, it is the thought that counts. For that, I thank you, with all my heart. You brightened up my day. (It was that bad)
After which, I WENT SWIMMING WITH JOY!!! It was totally impromptu. We were at the pool for around, close to 2 hours. BUT, we swam 4 laps only. HAHAHA, as per always- we were talking and talking and talking. I told her EVERYTHING I can possibly think of. From school to friends to the things I do after school when I am free. Then... we talked about Valentine's Day. Kenneth has to be in camp!!! Aw.. but she would be going out Melina anyways. Me? =]

Vday!
I was AT HOME, ALL DAY! Loser uhh. Spent the whole day doing TXY huixun article.
Had a date with my dogs and they got their exercise and got cleaned.
At night, went out for dinner with parents. All for the food! T3, Imperial Treasure. Didn't go out with Vic, Taa and Eugenie because mache was out. The only enjoyable thing was cam whoring with my sister and the food. At the end of the day, my mom decided not to fetch me to school no more. It was horrendously unreasonable! Those who needs to be fetched to school because the bus ride is an hour long and I would sit on the bus/ stand on the bus till my butt gets numb/ my legs go jelly do not get fetched and those who does not need be fetched because it is just a less-than-10 minutes bus ride away gets to be fetched. Where is the love?

Post Vday
1. Spent all my time doing TXY huixun ban
2. Was late for movie with Vic and Twan because of the above
3. Got pissed by the above
4. Had to redo number 1

Have a good day tomorrow! School is here..... gosh.

HATE HATE HATE!