Monday, November 01, 2010
Melbourne Love
Dad said. Let it run it's full course before quitting. So I am super sian. Attachment and exams. I still need to buy the black nursing shoes! Shoes are a problem to me. Gah... shouldn't have told him that attachment came in 2 blocks. Now, I need to study for the exams that's in between.
I just can't wait to throw away everything here and just go over now! The anticipation is killing me. I need to pack. PACK! So many things to PACK! Would I have the time? I need to move my room out. Because it'll be rented.
The independence rocks. It's not as if living alone is a foreign concept for me. It was like this during A's and I was able to concentrate better, less distractions, less accompany. Staying at Grandma's house was as good as living alone. Although, I must say it's still a little different. I had my meals and laundry covered. Bills are not settled by me. The environment wasn't a foreign one. PLUS, I don't have to walk to school. I even cabbed to school for exams.
So, if I have to quit, it means that I have no other alternative. It's either do (well) or die. That's simple! Besides, I'll be studying things I've done in A's. Which I think I've forgotten. GOSH, need to revise. So, time?
This is complicated and I'm in such a dilemma! Quit school to pack room and revise topics or continue and revise the new things I've learnt which are not of immediate importance to my point-breaking, decision-dependent future.
If I continue, I'll be spending more money on transport and notes printing. I'll be spending more time on clinicals and exams studying. I'll have less time to pack and revise for Taylor's.
If I quit, I won't have the chance to go to the aged care attachment. I'd have wasted money on the uniform and badge. I wouldn't be able to assess my learning in nursing so far. But, I'll have much more time to prepare myself for the transition.
I can't wait for 2011 Formula 1™ Australian Grand Prix and 2011 L’Oréal Melbourne Fashion Festival (LMFF).
This decision is tough. If only I had more time. Now, I only have 30 minutes left to craft my synthesis.
Friday, August 20, 2010
Quintessential.Voices.Resonace
Roma, roma, ma
Gaga ohh la la
Want your bad romance
Where has singing gone to? Where has music disappeared to? Whatever about self-expression.
I'm just tired maybe.
Or I'm just being cowardly.
Should I sing?
Or just, can I?
Sleep!
Sunday, July 25, 2010
I was stealing the use of her laptop!
While trying to "edit friends", updating the "list" grouping, I realised how interesting and sadistic life has been. For one, my classification generalised. What used to be school and class became just school. Laziness fluctuated, causing serious non-uniformity, caps where not where they should be placed. However, the rampant in-discriminative socialising behaviour of the Homo Sapiens never failed to surprise me; even the most hermit of hermits would have "friends".
With every name that passed, memories and emotions would gush out. I can only compare the way it felt with the current state of our weather conditions in Singapore: unpredictable. There wasn't a just pleasant or a just nostalgic, it was all mixed and thrown into the blender. It was like how the rain just came down so heavily when the sun was up high and bright on the roads of orchard after I went to idp.
Pleasant experiences fade away to become memories that jolt a sense of nostalgia. When it is nostalgia you feel, it is non-existent the incidences. Those stories of yesteryears are what that remain us "friends" on Facebook, as it suggests, it is purely virtual.
friend
[frend]
Show IPA
) a member of the Religious Society ofFriends; a Quaker.The degree of specificity just decreases down the explanations of the meaning of the word.
What I am doing makes me sad or should I say, distressed at my social handicap.
If I have a time machine, I would make those memories real again.
Friday, July 09, 2010
My Comeback
It is still the holidays now and I've been asked what have I been doing. Initially I thought nothing much. Then I probed myself further and I guess it is really not that much...
1. Volunteering
- Chingay
Nothing much really. Just was the SOIC. Attended a few training and reconnaissance (recee) and meetings and 2 shows.
- Explorally
Attended a few of their meetings and did a full trial with the kids. Had to drop out halfway due to their change of date. Hope my wet weather plans probing helped them.
- NDP
IT IS NEVER-ENDING. At least the drama did- I would like the entertainment but not the complications. 5 more shows left, 4 more for me: NE1, NE3, Preview, SHOW! Don't you just love the Wednesday fattening, rubbishing, Shao-Hong-bullying and draggy meetings.
- YOG
First training, 8am tomorrow! Mad rush before NE1.
2. Learning
- Driving
I missed my practical lesson for the SECOND time. There flies another $53++. Hope to get my license within this year.
- Drums
Just quit the horrible and money sucking "My Drums School" located in Jalan Behsar. Would be looking for better places! Drumming is so cool!
- Ballet
Having Tuesday nights' lessons at Attitude in Bukit Timah Shopping Centre. Would be looking for Thursday classes! My core is practically rotten!
3. School
- NUS CAC Camp
Met interesting people and got traumatized badly during SP activities.
- Nursing FOC
Just ended yesterday! I met nice people and really can't wait for school to start!
- NUS Med Rag
Would be helping with the costumes. Just ended our day 1 of work today. 1 month to slog! I also found out today that Med people spend money like it's free.
I guess that is all I did or am doing now. As for the future....
1. Hair for Hope 2010
2. Work: YOG Housekeeping
3. Australia settlement
Life should be more exciting.
What CCAs should I join?
Monday, April 05, 2010
Random evaluation of #1
Monday, February 22, 2010
GLEEK! LM awesomest =]
I close my eyes and he has found me
All my life I've only been pretending
I love him
Trying to apologise
Please just cut it out, cause you're not
Really have me going, very entertaining
But it's over now
Not knowing our pasts, future and worlds
Is there solid ground below, or hand to hold
What do you say
Take the chance and jump
Maybe this time, I am lucky
Maybe this time, love won't hurry away
Maybe this time I'll win and they'll love me
It's gonna happen, this time
Airy fairy took my breath away
My world revolves around you
How do expect me to live alone
How are you gonna live without me, no
I'm through with playing my your rules
It's time to try defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye, you won't bring me down
If I don't try, I'll never know
It's just a little crush, don't go so deep in
We don't need a scientist to know what's happening
It's not like we have a date with destiny
Not everything I do depends on you
My first love, you're everything
I want to share all my love with you, endlessly
Your eyes tell me how much you care
Forever I'll hold you close to my arms
I'm sure you know I don't mind being a fool for you, oh love
Why did you kiss that girl for
When you first left me, I was so lost
When you cried asking me back, I smiled
I smiled
Friday, February 19, 2010
Now
What do you say...
钻牛角尖,我的性格。也可以说,追求完美。
应该放过自己,残忍可能是一种自我考验。
I really do understand now why people love to drink till it numbs their senses.
Just that I don't drink.
能回头看,是件好事。
停留在现在,是愚蠢。
往前冲,可是最重要。
Monday, January 18, 2010
eventful. How so?
1. A normal trip to IMM became much of a shocker due to the cost of it.
- Grocery shopping at Giant costed $193. I know I have a penchant for choosing expensive items but 2 magazines and some yoghurt and facial wash (on top of the normal grocery items) shouldn't be that ex.
- Mom knocked into someone's car and caused a dent on the Hyundai. She sent the driver to the service centre we're familiar with and of course Dad have to foot the bill.
2. The anesthetist had a last minute heart surgery to attend to.
- Since I can't go for surgery without being sedated (I am being put to sleep), the surgery is being postponed. This is awful cause I have to prolong the pain. So Friday, 2pm it is! I am going to be going to Mount E. Going to a hospital just makes everything a whole lot worse.
- It was so funny, Dr A Wong called to tell me the news and then Dr Lim's nurse called to say the exact same thing. What was I hoping for besides a "no food and drinks 6 hours prior the op". So I think I have to have my last meal at 0800 hrs! Can I even wake up?
- The arrangements were made very last minute and Dr Lim squeezed me into his lunch break, so I can't have my front teeth back that day. I may remain front teethless for at least a day. CUTE!
3. Spoke to Mason again.
It was totally random and weird. So I shall pass.
4. I got the runs all day and it is so not fun.
I don't hate the toilet but I don't really enjoy frequenting it. Staying there for long hours bathing or soaking in the hot tub is fun, but this, this isn't. But I don't know what happened to me.
5. Andrew Ng called me irritating just because I asked him who he likes.
- That made me really regret dining with him and being his personal shopper yesterday. That asshole made me wait so damn long at Marche. Also, his indecisiveness was a total turn off helping him buy nice shirts, not mentioning his bad fashion sense. Such a waste of good time and money
- So sending him off to army would so be the last time I am seeing him. He made me so angry I can rant off a whole chain of vulgarities but that is just uncouth. This is funny. See, he asked me out. So, I asked him out. When we went out, I told him going out with him felt like bringing my little brother out. So, he said "then don't go out with me". Which, I couldn't agree with more.
- Andrew Ng really know how to piss me off. The funny thing is he don't know when I am. I wasn't feeling very bright yesterday so I wasn't smiling a lot. The long wait wasn't really helping. The ignoring-of-me wasn't helping too. He was irritated cause I told him I was smarter than him. Yes, better prelim grades do not equate more intelligent. I failed, SO?
6. Avatar 3D here I come!
Tomorrow would be so exciting, having to meet and talk stuffs with 3 batches of people at J8. So I decided to also hop by Singapore Discovery Centre to watch the 3D movie. Derek was so in pain so I asked him out for it. The others whom I asked to watch it with me rejected me (days back, on other outings). I was surprised and happy Derek haven't watched it yet. I watch alone when I want to be that way. So that is nice. Although we haven't quite figured out how to get there. Given the inconvenience I think Derek is backing out.
7. Wei Shan suddenly spoke to me on msn.
It was funny cause she started like this "don't you have something you want to say to me?". Turns out it was no biggie, but she still has stuffs to tell me. When would I see her?
8. I heard the cute couple's breakup story.
- 1 Corinthians Chapter 7 Line 13 and 14. Line 13: And if a woman has a husband who is not a believer and he is willing to live with her, she must not divorce him. Line 14: For the unbelieving husband has been sanctified through his wife. If you are reading it (which I doubt you ever would chance upon my blog).
9. This something is stuck in my head for the whole day.
- jealousy |ˈjeləsē|
noun ( pl. -ousies)
the state or feeling of being jealous : a sharp pang of jealousy | resentments and jealousies festered.
- jealous |ˈjeləs|
adjective
feeling or showing envy of someone or their achievements and advantages : he grew jealous of her success.
- envy |ˈenvē|
noun ( pl. -vies)
a feeling of discontented or resentful longing aroused by someone else's possessions, qualities, or luck : she felt a twinge of envy for the people on board.
• ( the envy of) a person or thing that inspires such a feeling : their national health service is the envy of many in Europe.
- But I am still confused. When are you jealous? Why? What does that imply?
Sunday, January 17, 2010
Yes, I am scared.
So in the part 1 of 3 operation:
1. I'll be sedated. I need to starve for at least 6 hours before the surgery and I'll have that hospital tube thing inserted into my hand.
2. My 2 front teeth would be extracted. I think some sterilization has to be done to cleanse the infected area inside.
3. My wisdom tooth at one site would be extracted. This is so that they can have access to the jaw.
4. Since the front teeth is the diseased area, the bone inside can't grow fast enough before the gums receede tremendously. Thus, bone has to be chiseled out of my jaw and grafted into the diseased area.
5. I can't remember the reason but they're gonna cut the flap linking the upper lips and gum. This is ouch!
On the plus side I'll be given loads of painkillers. It'll totally kill all that pain that's bringing me down. Staying home means less expenditure- I'm running on deficit here, used the money for plaster for ezlink, money for ezlink for social purposes.
So today I finally figured what's my problem.
I'm punishing myself half the time.
So stupid, putting myself in situations that makes the cup overflow.
I figured, loving myself more would be the best solution.
Easier said than done.
Today there was chingay.
There wasn't movie witn R, YS & Peter.
There was class gathering with 13 people eating food meant for 20 and paying $20 for very simple stale fare.
There was movie watching after that. Warning: hostel is more porn than gore. Overall, the movie was disgustingly okay.
Something random, it is revolting to hear some ang moh speaking singlish with their caucasian accent. It is as disgusting as Singaporeans trying to speak english with caucasian accent.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
OH MY GOSH!
There's something on my mind, something scary, the surgery. Consultations are this thursday, so I'll be fixing my op day then.
So here's the long story.
When I was in primary 4, I remembered we were having our P.E. lesson. We were playing police and thief and I was on the police side. So, a thief ran past me and I told Wei Han (who's also a police) to catch him as I was guarding the prison. As I turned to face him, he RAMMED into me. My goodness, he is the school's sprinter. Imagine the impact.
I fell to the floor instantaneously and he, flew meters across. I dropped my 2 adult front teeth, my nose bled, elbows and knees awfully scraped. For Wei Han, he just got a bruise on the cheek. It was infuriating. But, the fault wasn't his anyway. The teachers helped me up and took my teeth for a thorough cleansing.
Wei Han apologised. So sweet. We were loggerheads in primary school, so it was nice of him to apologise.
I was rushed to SGH. The teeth were unsalvageable because the roots were washed off. I had root canal treatment that day. It was horrifying and a little painful and I went to school with braces like things on my teeth.
As years went by the teeth fused with my facial bone so everything came into place. Until one fateful day last year. There was a fracture - the day I most fear came. So the teeth, the 2 FRONT teeth. Dr Wong YH at SGH recommended me Dr A Wong who opens a private clinic (the Oral Care centre). Plan was, I'm getting implants.
After much discussion with her orthodontist, I had braces to slowly pull my front teeth out. This would allow the bone to heal while the teeth is being 'extracted' with orthodontic forces. The carbon fiber rods were fitted in to join the fractured teeth. I've been seeing Dr Henry Ho faithfully for the past few months and although there were complications here and there nothing major happened.
On NYE, the unwanted happened. I found out I had a blister on the gum holding the right front tooth. This spells trouble. I was worried but all I can do is wait cause dental appointment is on the 7th. That day the x-ray confirmed it. The teeth DETACHED! It was horrible. They have to be removed ASAP because of the infection (shown by the blister).
I thought it was bad, removing my front teeth and the swell and such. The worse was when Dr A Wong called and told me they also need more bone from other places. I was shocked! The bone would be taken from my jaw. It was like double the horror! It was also such a kill joy for VDCX + Weijia KTV (when twan finally made it over).
So, I'll be having kind of like a wisdom tooth + front teeth op. I'll be under anesthetic (the whole body kind). I guess I'll start to fully freak out on thursday, after dental consultations.
The only plus point would be having 2 weeks to stay at home to pack my filthy room. I am now trying to fill my days with the company of others.
I guess that's all for the story.
Thursday, January 07, 2010
ZZomg!
I am scared.
I am worried.
I'll be home.
I'll be absent.
I have one more week to play.
I have two weeks after to heal.
Let it be safe.
Let it heal fast.
Let me not fret.
Let me not blog like that.
I'll have to miss 3rd general meeting.
I'll have to miss 2nd volunteers training.
Well, at least I can get twantwan to visit! =]
and we chat with paper.
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
Today
I was so sick I slept almost the whole day, ate and watched tv. Bathing didn't help and it also didn't help that I have proposals to look through and people to update.
Fault on me for sleeping late. I need to get well soon. Not gonna waste my hols doing stupid things.
Talked to Mason. It was surprising- the kinda things I told him. Since we weren't exactly friends when the class still existed.
I want to go ice-skating! Missed it with Wei Li. The YS, Peter, R and maybe bong, taa, bushykid, huiling convo didn't help to expedite the organization of an ice-skating cum chingay outing.
God bless the world. Improve the human hearts and soul.
Let there be conscience! =]
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Us
Thursday, December 24, 2009
and so I really did SEE
Compromising is not an option.
Let that exclusive love blossom!
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
wedding and prom
Wedding was well, small and sweet. Decked in a white dress and burnt skin, I think I looked all so patriotic. The day started early, the wedding ended rather early too. My hair and makeup wasn't even done when the groom came. We were supposed to sabotage the groom before allowing him to see the bride, but we were all such a softie and allowed him in for peanuts amount. I guess the lack of sleep and the burning pain of sun burn made be delirious (people might beg to differ on that).
The venue, Shangri-La. The suite, gorgeous! It is a room with a (construction) view, level 19 is all too cool! I was pulled into being emcee the last minute and partner was so nervous we screwed up a lil. It was nice seeing relatives again (socialising and catching up). We talked about uni, A's, tutoring, all the usuals. Cousin was being as egoistic as ever, I guess it is the polo vibe.
The prom day was nerve wrecking. Hair was done oh-so last minute. I had to wait an hour for the stylist and she bitched about me being unbearable thinking that I had left the place. $40 bucks for a simple hair style, loads of pins and hairspray. Not worth it.
I was surprised my dress was wearable! Gosh! When we were shopping for it, it was still super tight. Well, =]. Make up was done so last minute at the suite. Me, my aunt's sista and I. This is the epic situation of too many cooks spoil the broth. I went down for prom at 8.30 pm when I planned to arrive 2 hours earlier.
Everyone looked gorgeous (almost everyone looked flattering). I think everyone from the class came, except Stella though. Food was awful, the food at wedding was better. Yes, both were at the same hotel. I was so fidgety throughout prom, meddling with stuffs and I was so distracted I lost my door gift even (and forgot to vote for Guo Xiang and Germaine).
JJ was just next door and OMG the difference in prom ticket is horrendous! We paid an astronomical amount! It was fun pulling people out from JJ, having a mini 412 gathering. It was so stupid we couldn't crash their prom. They had tighter a security and people have UV stamps imprinted on their hands. So, JJ people crashed ours instead. Gah, Si Ian!
Now, post prom was just what I expected. This is considered my first time clubbing, the thank-you dinner at St. James didn't count. I sat, watched people, got amused, tried dancing, ended up being knocked around. I figured, good company is so important to enjoy oneself during clubbing.
I really wanted NYH to come over, but he decided against it the last minute. =[ So, I hang round Christie and friends, Andrew and at times, Wei Li. Jia Cheng accompanied me for a while when he came over (he turned so gay!). It was nice watching people, sweating together. They get the adrenaline from dancing, getting high on alcohol. I get the adrenaline from watching, and getting high with good company (it was a rare moment). This adrenaline is addictive.
Halfway through I think I got a little tired and a little drunk (I only had a few sips and a gulp of vodka). It was fun watching Zi Mu and Dahlia dance. Christie was dancing like mad. I was very shocked when I finally realised the guy dancing to the speaker was Zachary Yong! Gosh! He looked DRUNK! Yet, he sounds like the perfect Zac when he started speaking. I was astounded and saddened. Astounded at the obvious. Saddened at my inferiorness. I always knew there was a streak of rebelliousness in him, but this... WOW!
Wei Li, Andrew, Billy and Christie and friends crashed the suite. The convo was interesting. The guys were so into soccer. Okay, this is so interesting- it was so girlish when I asked Wei Li and Andrew to help me with my hair. So girl, so sweet, the only thing is they are straight guys.
So, I blatantly ignored someone the whole time. From prom to post prom. It was so obvious! It's fine I suppose. I suppose... It didn't matter to anyone.
Gonna go clubbing with NYH and NYK sometime and see how they can actually dance! I am more concerned with laughing at NYH thou.
Goodbye glitz and glamour, back to responsibilities and all things mundane and repetitive.
the regret? stupid sun burn
Sunday, December 06, 2009
LAST prom
This is never ending and yes mom would insist I go.
Post A levels torture!
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Less than 3 WEEKS....
A goal marks the end of the race. If it hasn't been achieved, would you still consider the race well-ran, or even completed. Unlike the actualities of a real run, where the route is tangible, clear and absolute and very step taken is evident and unambiguous, where every athlete's pace is outwardly displayed, where competition is transparent and the win is explicit, the A's I'm so afraid would be the direct opposite, even the end is subjective.
Oh gracious Lord. I pray for blessings, mercy and strength. I guess this is the epic of 平时不烧香,零时抱佛脚.
Cast those ifs and if-nots away (like the societal strata of haves and have-nots), for the sake of an advance.
请让我呐喊, 让我得到,
我要长下去。
我要生病了。
Saturday, November 14, 2009
For I'll love you till the end of time
Reason #1 of XXXXXX, why sleep is bad for you.
You wake up after a nap thinking it was the next afternoon and you've missed the most important exam of your life.
Reason #1 of XXXXXX, why sleep is good for you.
You would have kept your sanity.
Sunday, November 08, 2009
Why I should study my ass of NOW.
Discretionary Admission »
We set aside up to 10 % of vacancies for consideration of exceptional candidates for admission to NUS. For such candidates, we will consider other factors besides grades. The following are some samples of exceptional achievements that we may take into consideration :
- Medal winner at the International Olympiads (Biology, Chemistry, Informatics, Mathematics and Physics)
- Winner in the National Science & Talent Search
- Represented Singapore in Arts and/or Sports
- Active participation in community service and volunteer programmes.
- Work experience relevant to the course applied for (supporting document/s is/are required)
- Key leadership positions in community organisations, sports and athletic clubs, etc (outside school)
In addition, you can provide information on awards/honours that you have won. If you wish to be considered under this scheme, you should provide the details in the 'Discretionary Admissions' section in the online application form. You should then follow up by sending supporting documents to NUS. Please note that if the 'Discretionary Admissions' section in the online application form is not filled in, you will be deemed as not interested for consideration under this scheme.
Why I should've put in more effort for A level Chinese.
Mother Tongue Language Bonus Points »
If you have done well in your higher MTL subject (Chinese, Malay or Tamil) or MTL subject (Chinese, Malay or Tamil) at the 'A' Level examination, you are eligible for MTL bonus points on condition that you pass the required modules in your respective MTL subjects:
- Chinese Language or Chinese Studies.
- Malay Studies.
- South Asian Studies.
The following MTL bonus points will be awarded:
- Two bonus points for applicants who attained at least an E grade H2 MTL;
- One bonus point for applicants who attained at least an A grade in H1 MTL;
- One bonus point for applicants who attained at least a B grade in H1 General Studies in Chinese; and
- Students offering any combinations of MTL-related subjects are allowed to accumulate the MTL bonus points allocated for each subject, including a combination of H1 MTL and H2 MTL.
- The cap on bonus points will be three.
- For more information, you can visit MOE’s website at: http://www3.moe.edu.sg/cpdd/alevel2006/faqs.htm#Q29.
The MTL bonus points will be added to the Singapore-Cambridge GCE 'A' Level component for computation. The use of bonus points to gain admission to NUS is similar to the award of bonus points for admission to the Junior College Chinese Language Elective Programme.
If you have used the MTL bonus points for admission to the Arts and Social Science course, you will have to sign an undertaking at the point of acceptance.
For more information on the use of bonus points to gain admission to MTL-related courses, you can refer to MOE website.

