eventful. How so?

A lot of things happened recently (or are going to happen). For say, today.

1. A normal trip to IMM became much of a shocker due to the cost of it.
- Grocery shopping at Giant costed $193. I know I have a penchant for choosing expensive items but 2 magazines and some yoghurt and facial wash (on top of the normal grocery items) shouldn't be that ex.
- Mom knocked into someone's car and caused a dent on the Hyundai. She sent the driver to the service centre we're familiar with and of course Dad have to foot the bill.

2. The anesthetist had a last minute heart surgery to attend to.
- Since I can't go for surgery without being sedated (I am being put to sleep), the surgery is being postponed. This is awful cause I have to prolong the pain. So Friday, 2pm it is! I am going to be going to Mount E. Going to a hospital just makes everything a whole lot worse.
- It was so funny, Dr A Wong called to tell me the news and then Dr Lim's nurse called to say the exact same thing. What was I hoping for besides a "no food and drinks 6 hours prior the op". So I think I have to have my last meal at 0800 hrs! Can I even wake up?
- The arrangements were made very last minute and Dr Lim squeezed me into his lunch break, so I can't have my front teeth back that day. I may remain front teethless for at least a day. CUTE!

3. Spoke to Mason again.
It was totally random and weird. So I shall pass.

4. I got the runs all day and it is so not fun.
I don't hate the toilet but I don't really enjoy frequenting it. Staying there for long hours bathing or soaking in the hot tub is fun, but this, this isn't. But I don't know what happened to me.

5. Andrew Ng called me irritating just because I asked him who he likes.
- That made me really regret dining with him and being his personal shopper yesterday. That asshole made me wait so damn long at Marche. Also, his indecisiveness was a total turn off helping him buy nice shirts, not mentioning his bad fashion sense. Such a waste of good time and money
- So sending him off to army would so be the last time I am seeing him. He made me so angry I can rant off a whole chain of vulgarities but that is just uncouth. This is funny. See, he asked me out. So, I asked him out. When we went out, I told him going out with him felt like bringing my little brother out. So, he said "then don't go out with me". Which, I couldn't agree with more.
- Andrew Ng really know how to piss me off. The funny thing is he don't know when I am. I wasn't feeling very bright yesterday so I wasn't smiling a lot. The long wait wasn't really helping. The ignoring-of-me wasn't helping too. He was irritated cause I told him I was smarter than him. Yes, better prelim grades do not equate more intelligent. I failed, SO?

6. Avatar 3D here I come!
Tomorrow would be so exciting, having to meet and talk stuffs with 3 batches of people at J8. So I decided to also hop by Singapore Discovery Centre to watch the 3D movie. Derek was so in pain so I asked him out for it. The others whom I asked to watch it with me rejected me (days back, on other outings). I was surprised and happy Derek haven't watched it yet. I watch alone when I want to be that way. So that is nice. Although we haven't quite figured out how to get there. Given the inconvenience I think Derek is backing out.

7. Wei Shan suddenly spoke to me on msn.
It was funny cause she started like this "don't you have something you want to say to me?". Turns out it was no biggie, but she still has stuffs to tell me. When would I see her?

8. I heard the cute couple's breakup story.
- 1 Corinthians Chapter 7 Line 13 and 14. Line 13: And if a woman has a husband who is not a believer and he is willing to live with her, she must not divorce him. Line 14: For the unbelieving husband has been sanctified through his wife. If you are reading it (which I doubt you ever would chance upon my blog).

- He was in pain, she was confused, her friend is such a bitch, I feel so sorry for him cause he's in NS and I can't meet him to cheer him up. I guess having him tell me the whole teary breakup story pains him even more.

- Yes my dear, for you believed in the footprints poem, He would also carry you through it.

9. This something is stuck in my head for the whole day.
- jealousy |ˈjeləsē|
noun ( pl. -ousies)
the state or feeling of being jealous : a sharp pang of jealousy | resentments and jealousies festered.
- jealous |ˈjeləs|
adjective
feeling or showing envy of someone or their achievements and advantages : he grew jealous of her success.
- envy |ˈenvē|
noun ( pl. -vies)
a feeling of discontented or resentful longing aroused by someone else's possessions, qualities, or luck : she felt a twinge of envy for the people on board.
• ( the envy of) a person or thing that inspires such a feeling : their national health service is the envy of many in Europe.
- But I am still confused. When are you jealous? Why? What does that imply?

10. Chancing upon an insightful new web log.

The owner would make for a perfect boyfriend, great thinker, knowledgeable, tall, filthy rich, funny and sweet. But not to mention he is also weird, scheming, weird, weird and changed his number secretly (I bet to cast away his past).

Yes, I am scared.

I had consultations last thursday for dental surgery next thursday. What I thought was bad, became worse.

So in the part 1 of 3 operation:
1. I'll be sedated. I need to starve for at least 6 hours before the surgery and I'll have that hospital tube thing inserted into my hand.
2. My 2 front teeth would be extracted. I think some sterilization has to be done to cleanse the infected area inside.
3. My wisdom tooth at one site would be extracted. This is so that they can have access to the jaw.
4. Since the front teeth is the diseased area, the bone inside can't grow fast enough before the gums receede tremendously. Thus, bone has to be chiseled out of my jaw and grafted into the diseased area.
5. I can't remember the reason but they're gonna cut the flap linking the upper lips and gum. This is ouch!

On the plus side I'll be given loads of painkillers. It'll totally kill all that pain that's bringing me down. Staying home means less expenditure- I'm running on deficit here, used the money for plaster for ezlink, money for ezlink for social purposes.

So today I finally figured what's my problem.
I'm punishing myself half the time.
So stupid, putting myself in situations that makes the cup overflow.
I figured, loving myself more would be the best solution.
Easier said than done.

Today there was chingay.
There wasn't movie witn R, YS & Peter.

There was a random lunch with Charlyn, Xue Yi, TK, JK, and Chinagy people.

Disappointing
There was class gathering with 13 people eating food meant for 20 and paying $20 for very simple stale fare.
There was movie watching after that. Warning: hostel is more porn than gore. Overall, the movie was disgustingly okay.

Something random, it is revolting to hear some ang moh speaking singlish with their caucasian accent. It is as disgusting as Singaporeans trying to speak english with caucasian accent.

OH MY GOSH!

Have been out the whole day. Was supposed to have fun, but I can't help but feel uneasy the whole day. It was as if something wrong was going to happen. 我一整天都有很不详的预感. It is so not fun.

There's something on my mind, something scary, the surgery. Consultations are this thursday, so I'll be fixing my op day then.

So here's the long story.

When I was in primary 4, I remembered we were having our P.E. lesson. We were playing police and thief and I was on the police side. So, a thief ran past me and I told Wei Han (who's also a police) to catch him as I was guarding the prison. As I turned to face him, he RAMMED into me. My goodness, he is the school's sprinter. Imagine the impact.

I fell to the floor instantaneously and he, flew meters across. I dropped my 2 adult front teeth, my nose bled, elbows and knees awfully scraped. For Wei Han, he just got a bruise on the cheek. It was infuriating. But, the fault wasn't his anyway. The teachers helped me up and took my teeth for a thorough cleansing.

Wei Han apologised. So sweet. We were loggerheads in primary school, so it was nice of him to apologise.

I was rushed to SGH. The teeth were unsalvageable because the roots were washed off. I had root canal treatment that day. It was horrifying and a little painful and I went to school with braces like things on my teeth.

As years went by the teeth fused with my facial bone so everything came into place. Until one fateful day last year. There was a fracture - the day I most fear came. So the teeth, the 2 FRONT teeth. Dr Wong YH at SGH recommended me Dr A Wong who opens a private clinic (the Oral Care centre). Plan was, I'm getting implants.

After much discussion with her orthodontist, I had braces to slowly pull my front teeth out. This would allow the bone to heal while the teeth is being 'extracted' with orthodontic forces. The carbon fiber rods were fitted in to join the fractured teeth. I've been seeing Dr Henry Ho faithfully for the past few months and although there were complications here and there nothing major happened.

On NYE, the unwanted happened. I found out I had a blister on the gum holding the right front tooth. This spells trouble. I was worried but all I can do is wait cause dental appointment is on the 7th. That day the x-ray confirmed it. The teeth DETACHED! It was horrible. They have to be removed ASAP because of the infection (shown by the blister).

I thought it was bad, removing my front teeth and the swell and such. The worse was when Dr A Wong called and told me they also need more bone from other places. I was shocked! The bone would be taken from my jaw. It was like double the horror! It was also such a kill joy for VDCX + Weijia KTV (when twan finally made it over).

So, I'll be having kind of like a wisdom tooth + front teeth op. I'll be under anesthetic (the whole body kind). I guess I'll start to fully freak out on thursday, after dental consultations.

I had another blister again yesterday, so it was so not good!

The only plus point would be having 2 weeks to stay at home to pack my filthy room. I am now trying to fill my days with the company of others.

I guess that's all for the story.

ZZomg!

This is worse than wisdom tooth extraction.

I am scared.
I am worried.

I'll be home.
I'll be absent.

I have one more week to play.
I have two weeks after to heal.

Let it be safe.
Let it heal fast.
Let me not fret.
Let me not blog like that.

I'll have to miss 3rd general meeting.
I'll have to miss 2nd volunteers training.

I can't miss the BTE and BTT.


Well, at least I can get twantwan to visit! =]
and we chat with paper.

OH NO!

Today

Since I almost typed out my whole blog post on the convo with Peter, I might as well just post it.

I was so sick I slept almost the whole day, ate and watched tv. Bathing didn't help and it also didn't help that I have proposals to look through and people to update.

Fault on me for sleeping late. I need to get well soon. Not gonna waste my hols doing stupid things.

Talked to Mason. It was surprising- the kinda things I told him. Since we weren't exactly friends when the class still existed.

I want to go ice-skating! Missed it with Wei Li. The YS, Peter, R and maybe bong, taa, bushykid, huiling convo didn't help to expedite the organization of an ice-skating cum chingay outing.


God bless the world. Improve the human hearts and soul.
Let there be conscience! =]

Us

Humans do thrive on compliments. The soul feeds on positivity. This also makes all that sound disposable.

and so I really did SEE

It was like travelling out of that crystal globe. The transition in POV was really tremendous and often not that pleasing.

Compromising is not an option.

Let that exclusive love blossom!

wedding and prom

took so little photos!

Wedding was well, small and sweet. Decked in a white dress and burnt skin, I think I looked all so patriotic. The day started early, the wedding ended rather early too. My hair and makeup wasn't even done when the groom came. We were supposed to sabotage the groom before allowing him to see the bride, but we were all such a softie and allowed him in for peanuts amount. I guess the lack of sleep and the burning pain of sun burn made be delirious (people might beg to differ on that).

The venue, Shangri-La. The suite, gorgeous! It is a room with a (construction) view, level 19 is all too cool! I was pulled into being emcee the last minute and partner was so nervous we screwed up a lil. It was nice seeing relatives again (socialising and catching up). We talked about uni, A's, tutoring, all the usuals. Cousin was being as egoistic as ever, I guess it is the polo vibe.

The prom day was nerve wrecking. Hair was done oh-so last minute. I had to wait an hour for the stylist and she bitched about me being unbearable thinking that I had left the place. $40 bucks for a simple hair style, loads of pins and hairspray. Not worth it.

I was surprised my dress was wearable! Gosh! When we were shopping for it, it was still super tight. Well, =]. Make up was done so last minute at the suite. Me, my aunt's sista and I. This is the epic situation of too many cooks spoil the broth. I went down for prom at 8.30 pm when I planned to arrive 2 hours earlier.

Everyone looked gorgeous (almost everyone looked flattering). I think everyone from the class came, except Stella though. Food was awful, the food at wedding was better. Yes, both were at the same hotel. I was so fidgety throughout prom, meddling with stuffs and I was so distracted I lost my door gift even (and forgot to vote for Guo Xiang and Germaine).

JJ was just next door and OMG the difference in prom ticket is horrendous! We paid an astronomical amount! It was fun pulling people out from JJ, having a mini 412 gathering. It was so stupid we couldn't crash their prom. They had tighter a security and people have UV stamps imprinted on their hands. So, JJ people crashed ours instead. Gah, Si Ian!

Now, post prom was just what I expected. This is considered my first time clubbing, the thank-you dinner at St. James didn't count. I sat, watched people, got amused, tried dancing, ended up being knocked around. I figured, good company is so important to enjoy oneself during clubbing.

I really wanted NYH to come over, but he decided against it the last minute. =[ So, I hang round Christie and friends, Andrew and at times, Wei Li. Jia Cheng accompanied me for a while when he came over (he turned so gay!). It was nice watching people, sweating together. They get the adrenaline from dancing, getting high on alcohol. I get the adrenaline from watching, and getting high with good company (it was a rare moment). This adrenaline is addictive.

Halfway through I think I got a little tired and a little drunk (I only had a few sips and a gulp of vodka). It was fun watching Zi Mu and Dahlia dance. Christie was dancing like mad. I was very shocked when I finally realised the guy dancing to the speaker was Zachary Yong! Gosh! He looked DRUNK! Yet, he sounds like the perfect Zac when he started speaking. I was astounded and saddened. Astounded at the obvious. Saddened at my inferiorness. I always knew there was a streak of rebelliousness in him, but this... WOW!

Wei Li, Andrew, Billy and Christie and friends crashed the suite. The convo was interesting. The guys were so into soccer. Okay, this is so interesting- it was so girlish when I asked Wei Li and Andrew to help me with my hair. So girl, so sweet, the only thing is they are straight guys.

So, I blatantly ignored someone the whole time. From prom to post prom. It was so obvious! It's fine I suppose. I suppose... It didn't matter to anyone.

Gonna go clubbing with NYH and NYK sometime and see how they can actually dance! I am more concerned with laughing at NYH thou.

Goodbye glitz and glamour, back to responsibilities and all things mundane and repetitive.

the regret? stupid sun burn

hope Jia Cheng found his iTouch.

LAST prom

Oh I am so ugly I don't feel like going for prom. Then again, I've already paid for the ticket, bought everything else with makeup and hair left! Then again, I have a whole suite to myself, completed with HUGE bathroom and semi walk-in wardrobe and nice king-sized bed. Then again, I look ugly.

This is never ending and yes mom would insist I go.

Post A levels torture!

Less than 3 WEEKS....

The same title, the same complexity of emotions, BUT there'll be a different ending. As much as the silence is dreaded, the conclusion is feared. Come judgement day, all would come undone.

A goal marks the end of the race. If it hasn't been achieved, would you still consider the race well-ran, or even completed. Unlike the actualities of a real run, where the route is tangible, clear and absolute and very step taken is evident and unambiguous, where every athlete's pace is outwardly displayed, where competition is transparent and the win is explicit, the A's I'm so afraid would be the direct opposite, even the end is subjective.

Oh gracious Lord. I pray for blessings, mercy and strength. I guess this is the epic of 平时不烧香，零时抱佛脚.

Cast those ifs and if-nots away (like the societal strata of haves and have-nots), for the sake of an advance.


请让我呐喊, 让我得到,
我要长下去。

我要生病了。

For I'll love you till the end of time

There is only one thing that ever made we wake up feeling anxious and almost on the brink of mental breakdown.

Reason #1 of XXXXXX, why sleep is bad for you.
You wake up after a nap thinking it was the next afternoon and you've missed the most important exam of your life.

Reason #1 of XXXXXX, why sleep is good for you.
You would have kept your sanity.

Finally,

Goodnight! =]

Why I should study my ass of NOW.

Discretionary Admission »

We set aside up to 10 % of vacancies for consideration of exceptional candidates for admission to NUS. For such candidates, we will consider other factors besides grades. The following are some samples of exceptional achievements that we may take into consideration :

1. Medal winner at the International Olympiads (Biology, Chemistry, Informatics, Mathematics and Physics)
2. Winner in the National Science & Talent Search
3. Represented Singapore in Arts and/or Sports
4. Active participation in community service and volunteer programmes.
5. Work experience relevant to the course applied for (supporting document/s is/are required)
6. Key leadership positions in community organisations, sports and athletic clubs, etc (outside school)

In addition, you can provide information on awards/honours that you have won. If you wish to be considered under this scheme, you should provide the details in the 'Discretionary Admissions' section in the online application form. You should then follow up by sending supporting documents to NUS. Please note that if the 'Discretionary Admissions' section in the online application form is not filled in, you will be deemed as not interested for consideration under this scheme.

Why I should've put in more effort for A level Chinese.

Mother Tongue Language Bonus Points »

If you have done well in your higher MTL subject (Chinese, Malay or Tamil) or MTL subject (Chinese, Malay or Tamil) at the 'A' Level examination, you are eligible for MTL bonus points on condition that you pass the required modules in your respective MTL subjects:

1. Chinese Language or Chinese Studies.
2. Malay Studies.
3. South Asian Studies.

The following MTL bonus points will be awarded:

1. Two bonus points for applicants who attained at least an E grade H2 MTL;
2. One bonus point for applicants who attained at least an A grade in H1 MTL;
3. One bonus point for applicants who attained at least a B grade in H1 General Studies in Chinese; and
4. Students offering any combinations of MTL-related subjects are allowed to accumulate the MTL bonus points allocated for each subject, including a combination of H1 MTL and H2 MTL.
5. The cap on bonus points will be three.
6. For more information, you can visit MOE’s website at: http://www3.moe.edu.sg/cpdd/alevel2006/faqs.htm#Q29.

The MTL bonus points will be added to the Singapore-Cambridge GCE 'A' Level component for computation. The use of bonus points to gain admission to NUS is similar to the award of bonus points for admission to the Junior College Chinese Language Elective Programme.

If you have used the MTL bonus points for admission to the Arts and Social Science course, you will have to sign an undertaking at the point of acceptance.

For more information on the use of bonus points to gain admission to MTL-related courses, you can refer to MOE website.

Tuition

OMG! I cannot stand this ANYMORE.

There is nothing such as EXTRA knowledge. Gosh! Knowledge is bountiful, knowledge is everlasting, knowledge is limitless. Cringe at the phrase "EXTRA knowledge". Extra, doesn't it just nuance that something is unnecessary, unneeded and uncalled for? Eg, EXTRA money, EXTRA homework, EXTRA food, and the list goes one. For the love of Albert Einstein and Leonardo Da Vinci, can all those existing and aspiring educators out there abolish the phrase: EXTRA knowledge.

I hate it whenever I ask things out of the context and they say "you do not need to know this". But, I'll always rebut with a "but I WANT to know it". There is such a vast difference between wants and needs. Although wants are commonly associated with the frivolous, it doesn't mean it can't be good.

NEW revelations I've made about myself. I am an audio and visual learner. Cool huh... Hence, it is so very irritating when:
1. The teachers stutters.
2. The teachers' grammar stinks.
3. The teachers can't explain well with words.
4. The teachers feel handicapped when I ask them to write it out.

Oh the chore! I hate touching my phone to handle such administrative tasks and await hours for a reply when I have to study so fervently.

C'mon, MOTIVATE! (FB is killing me) but COME ON!!!

It is awful that A levels is so exam-orientated instead of knowledge-based.

Finally, the finals!

1. THE finals
http://chinesemusicblog.com/news/loud-and-proud-season-6-the-finals

2. final log in (until after you-know-what)

3. the FINAL LAP
I am going crazy, but I think I deserved it.

STUPID SLACKER!

OUCH!

So, there was the Orh Nee burn. Beautiful works of art I must say.
The very same day, there were showers. Loads.
Effectively, work was left at bay.

The next came our case study.
The actual theory test would come in about 45 days but the specimens of enveloped viruses made their way over earlier.
Now, the consequences of not studying that hard hit me.

Incoherency.

This is the sweetest :)

有人在关心你飞得高不高时，只有少数人在关心你飞得累不累 这就是朋友。这周是世界好友周，如果你愿意，把这条信息发给你的好朋友。借你的手帮我摸摸你的头，小声说：一定要照顾好自己，善待自己，与人为善，记得健康快乐！
爱+爱 = 非常爱
爱-爱 = 从头爱
爱X爱 = 无限爱
爱除爱 = 唯一爱

THANKS EQCH!

SHEEEEEEEEEEET!!!!!

我知道我的好胜心很强的，这次真是自作自受！
I can feel those butterflies coming out,
I guess, only I know how I am best.

The shit I've gotten myself into

As I look up into the sky,
I see the Heavens crying.
I thank God for that.
but I needed a hug...
Sorry I was made dense.

Tagged on Facebook by Lee Renyuan

1. Grab Your Phone.

2. What is the 3rd picture of in your phone?
A snapshot about a shop called Chingay in Serangoon.

3. What's your ring tone?
Some random monotonic tune, call me and you can hear it.

4. Who's the 1st person that comes up under M?
Mabel Ong from NHHS furtwelee.

5. Who's the last person you called?
Mom.

6. Who was your last missed call from?
Hagen Tan.

7. Who's the 1st person who comes up under C?
Candice Huang from NDP YPC 08'.

8. Who's your speed dial number 2?
No speed dial.

9. What does 3rd text in ur inbox say?
Hagen reminding me about recording tomorrow.

10. Who was your last received call from?
Edna Chng.

11. What does your 7th inbox text say?
Alicia telling me that she found the file I sent her.

12. How many messages are currently in your in box?
2655 item.

13. What is the wallpaper?
Some black cup with black liquid I believe to be coffee.

14. What is the screen saver?
No screen saver.

15. Who is the 4th message from in your inbox?
Google reminder.

16. Who's the 1st person who comes up under B?
Bao Xi from SAJC 08S17 (PAE).

17. How many bars of signal do you currently have?
Full bar.

18. What network are you on?
Singtel too.

19. Name every person you have text messages from inbox?
I refuse. I haven't cleared my inbox for months. I clear items selectively.

20. What does your 20th text message in your in box say?
Miss Sin asking me to meet her at the staff room door near the CC to get the mock paper from her.

21. Who is the first person in your contacts?
4th Grand Aunt.

22. Who is the last name in your contacts?
Zipeng from WHY few years back. (and I don't have a clue why I kept his number)

23. What does the bottom text in your inbox say?
Mrs Chang reminding us to get our secondary school testimonial from NHHS GO.

24. What is your balance?
Postpaid.

25. Who is the last person under H?
Huiping from Just tuition Centre.

26. What is your bluetooth name?
cphy.

27. How many numbers are in your phone?
Too many to be counted manually in a SHORT time.

28.Whats the first video on your phone of?
No video.

29. Could you live without it?
To a small extent, NO.

30. Coolest person in your inbox?
A lot of them are.

Life, the subjectivity of it.

1. Me and my intricate English expressions.
We were once tools of each other, at each other's disposal. Both naively concluded that one had the upper hand in this maneuvering. The conclusion of factual superiority was drawn only AFTER manipulation ceased. How ironic!

2. Morality is dependent on the society.
Shorts is a fundamental attire of mine. However, try that in Middle Eastern countries.

3. Opinions exists.
I said "God gave you a mouth for you to eat your food!"
Sis replied "God gave me a mouth for me to talk"
*rolls eyes and said* "Don't copy me, God gave you food so that you can finish it"
Sis concluded with a failed rebuttal "So I can talk and eat"

4. Truth is non-absolute. As science advances, quality of education improves, the past becomes obsolete.
The fact about 9 planets in which we all hold so dearly to, became 8.



Bottom line: EVERYTHING in life is relative. Adjective are relative. Opinions are formed based on relativity- comparison of prior knowledge. Don't get me started on it.

Understatedly PRUNEY!

Love the way he LOVE her.


& forget the past, find a NEW adventure!

He, who should never appear

I've successfully chased away the one who fervently made messaging an essential communication device. So smart! It was SUPPOSEDLY meant to be helpful in assisting me up my intelligence level by filtering out and eradicating all possible lies and means to make me disposable (technically everything that makes me seem like an ignorant and all-believing teenage girl).

Prayers supported my case and decision of such a move, but the mind just seem to keep running away from reality. Subconsciously, I am digging for everything once buried so impeccably by the very self-thought intelligent mind that maneuvered this very game plan.

Ignore those blind spots, ignore those illogical ideas. It was a move no doubt naive, shortsighted, imbecilic and seemingly orchestrated by the simpleminded. But trust me my dear, this would serve me (and maybe you) well in the long long NONG NONG NONG NONG run.

Everything is cast in stone, what's done cannot be undone. I will not see it being undone. There's nothing to be done about it, so, fly away with the wind.

All the best for my A levels! So, for Bio, there'll be Miss W, for Chem, there'll be SC or NYH, for Math, there's definitely NG YIHAN, Econs, Mr P (and maybe Andrew Ng).

It was a fun today, wrecking the kitchen of Andrew's. He never fails to be a good friend, as much as, my mind never fails to drift far far away from reality, from where I'm meant to be.

没有你的幸福,
是我要的.

The mindless

Music

My love, sing for me in the full moon night.
Where the bliss would light up even the stormiest times.

My love, sing for me throughout the night.
For happiness would last when you serenade me with that voice so crisp and bright.

My love, let me sing for you in the full moon night.
So that I can melt into your soulful eyes.

My love, let me sing for you thought the night.
For the strength you gave me made everything felt alright.

My love, let us thank god for words and melody.
It is because of that, music is a possibility.

Oh no!

If hearts were made to flutter,
there would not be love.



I wanted to dedicate a really idiosyncratic post of mine to my AWESOME hairdresser. If not for the FABULOUS mood I am in now, I would have drafted a much lengthier post. A levels is INCREDIBLE. Please get the sarcasm.

Although I must admit, the hair cut was unexpectedly pleasant.

LESS than 3 WEEKS!

In an attempt to refrain myself from banging my head against the table, I hit the books!

喜欢你 LOUD and PROUD :)

So excited! So nervous I am shaking!!

Go listen! For me? =]

http://chinesemusicblog.com/news/loud-and-proud-season-6-round-1-group-a

压力的压力

我想建设一座更大的万哩长城，让我与班隔绝。

理由很长。

不多说。

猜也猜得到。

xie gei wo suo wei de ma

Shou ji wu fa da chu zhong wen zi, jiu zhi hao yong han yu pin yin, qing duo duo bao han.


Zi cheng shi wo mu qin de ni, wo gan xiang da zhong xuan shi, shuo ni bu pei. Qing wen, shen wei mu qin de ni, chu le ba wo fu yang cheng ren, hai zuo le xie shen me? Wo jue de, cheng ren ni jing le ba wo fu yang cheng ren de ze ren ye tai gao pan ni de neng li le. Zhen de qing wen nin, zhe shi ba nian ling er ge yue, nin jing ze le ma?

Zi cheng shi wo mu qin de ni, dao di dui wo de ren shi you duo shao? Wo he shi huan, he shi chou, ni dong ma? Dui yu wo de xi nu ai le, ni jing li guo ma? Liao jie ma? Mu du guo ma? Wo bu xi han ni you mei you neng li ba wo wei bao, chuan de nuan. Zhi wen, zai hua li de wai ke, ru guo mei you zhen gui de nei rong you shui hui xin shang?

Zi cheng shi wo mu qin de ni, wo cai ni shi ren chuo ren le. Xiao jie, ru guo ni xiang fa fong de hua, qing dao jing shen bing yuan qu. Ru guo bu jie yi, wo ke yi bang ni jiao ji cheng che, yi zhan jiu dao le.

Xiao jie, ci di bu yi jiu liu, yin wei yi ge jia bu shi zhe yang de.

担心

担心，非常的担心，好担心，无用的担心。

之前虽然知道病情有可能很严重，但没什么去理睬，毕竟只有去照X光才会知道病情的真相。虽然会痛，虽然对我日常生活带来干扰，我还是过一天是一天。

不照X光还不用紧，一照了X光，一整天心情就平复不了。一整天静不下心去读书，胡思乱想，现在既然有股冲动想找人出去发呆。现在，只好等。因为等待而担心，也宁愿担心而等待。自相矛盾。浪费时间。

报告出来了会是怎样？妈说，有可能需要特别治疗。如果动手术的话怎么办？万一手术失败，死了算了也好。万一手术失败，死不了，终身瘫痪就惨了!!!

事到如今，只能担心

抢麦新人王 2009 半决赛

1. 我不是你想像的那么勇敢
大失水准，所有的脏话都可以出来了啦！唱完就知道死定了！走音，破音，没有观众交流，大大扣分！还是跟玉能 P.K., 要死咯！虽然分数只差他三分左右，我还是输了。
摄影队的人都以为我在哭。披头散发的样子也难怪他们会那么想。有些人也说其实我的表现是因为影响系统干扰才会一落千丈的。谢谢你们。I still think that it's the personal performance that determines the final product, other factor might play a part but there are really minor

2. 喜欢你
在后台拼了老命苦练着首歌。把输了的悲痛化成恋爱的喜悦，超级难！Kelvin 又突然的出现，到后台唱歌换衣。是又 paiseh 又尴尬的。在司仪 (Cecilia) 不断催我尽快做出抉择的情况下，我选了之耀。最终打成平手，TMD 我又必须唱歌。
Drinking gang 说我一边唱歌时一边扭屁股，seriously... 靠！怎么可能！人家都说他们真的被打动了，殿君也说什么“不是女人的女人在唱歌...”。基本上就是一大堆对我表现感到不可思议的感叹。
选错人了啦！若知道自己会得 81.75 的高分，一定 P.K. 勇全。Since he said he would really want to P.K. me cause I really don't want to P.K. him.

3. 再一次拥有
景扬 and I were like rapping the lyrics at the last seconds in attempt to memorise them and we kept psychoing myself that I can beat 之耀, the scenario was crazy and super hilarious.
When I knew I had to sing, I already changed, so I wore t-shirt and shorts and jacket and HEELS and ran out to find people to tell me the lyrics, everyone stunned! Then, of course, I changed back into Birks.
心惊胆跳，最终我和之耀同时进了大决赛。


谢谢大家的支持！感谢你们的降临！我会努力的！我会让你们失望，我会然自己失望。

把一切的不愉快扔掉，让不勇敢的我勇敢向前！

我真的很不开心

本来不是因该开开心心的吗？本来，那不是一种解脱吗？可是，现在非常懊恼。这是一种难言之苦，也是一种说不出的痛。也只有我，才能化解这悲伤。突破极限！可是如果那么轻易就可以办到的话，怎么叫做突破。如果那么轻易就可以超越的话，怎么叫做极限。

现在只可以说两个字 “努力”
再两个字 “加油”
再四个字 “坚持到底“
最后四个字 ”不能放弃”

真的不可以，你可以吗？

但，我不是你想像的那么勇敢。